Tonight, I had another new experience. I found myself drawn to the same chat room I had visited before. This time though, when I received a message, I returned it.
The man's name was Tom. He seemed nice enough so I decided to keep talking to him. He was a bit older than me, but this excited me. He had been coming to this chat room for a long time so I figured that he would be able to teach me the ropes of cyber. I had become so enthralled by the thought of talking about such personal things with total strangers, I was unable to stay away.
Tom and I talked about little nothings for awhile, and then he said to me, "Serena, you are such an incredible lady. You send out this vibe of sensuality. Do you even know what you are doing?"
I was in shock! I hadn't a clue that my thoughts were coming through in the small talk we had been having. I was excited and turned on and unable to express these things to him, but he was seeing them anyway.
I admitted to him that I was new to the thought of cyber and that I was very curious about it. He asked me what I liked, what my sexual preferences were. I was so embarrassed. I didn't quite know how to tell him, so I just blurted it out.
"I like to be controlled. I like to be told what to do, and I love to please my partner. I have expiremented with bdsm a little and am so very curious to try the things that I have read about."
I couldn't believe that I just put all that out there! He was quiet for a moment... then he said, " I want you to do something for me. Will you trust me to teach you?".
Ohhh I was so very excited! I was trembling as I wrote back to him, "Yes, please do. I need someone who is experienced to lead me.".
"Alright then, I want you to do as I say, don't question me, just obey, immediately everything I tell you to do. Do you agree?".
"Yes sir," I couldn't believe I was doing this! "I'll do whatever you ask of me.".
"My sweet, I won't be asking you, I will be telling you...these will be orders, not requests. You need to be perfectly clear on this right now, before we go any further."
"If during the process, you disagree with me or disobey me, you will be punished. If you want to stop at any time, all you have to do is say so. I won't force you. In this, you have the power. If I push you too far or too fast, tell me. Now, do you agree to these terms?"
I was shaking by now, I was so very excited. "Yes, I agree fully. What should I say to you to let you know if I want to stop. I have read about safe words that some people use. Would me saying 'Red light' be alright with you?"
"Very smart thinking, Serena! Yes, this would be perfect. Alright, are you ready to start?"
"Yes sir, I am ready.". My body was trembling nearly out of control by this time. I could hardly type.
"Alright, I want you to collect the following items. Ice cubes, a glass of very hot water, a feather, two rubber bands and a vibe or something to stimulate yourself with. Let me know when you have all of them and are ready for me."
"Yes sir," I was at a loss why he wanted me to do this but I got up and searched my house for the items.
"I am back with everything you ordered, Sir.".
"Good girl! Now, are you ready to know what it is that I want you to do?"
"Oh yes sir, I'm more than ready!"
"Promise me first that you won't touch yourself anywhere until I tell you to. Is that clear?"
"Yes sir, it's perfectly clear, and I promise."
"Very good. Alright, tell me how you are feeling right now."
"Oh, I'm excited and anxious and so very turned on." I couldn't believe I was able to open up this way, it was coming so easily to me.
He sent a chuckle and said, "Very good! Now, I want you to pull your blouse off and expose your breasts. Take an ice cube in one hand and the glass of hot water in the other."
"I want you to rub your nipples with these, alternating every 10 seconds or so until I tell you to stop. Do you understand?"
I could feel my nipples hardening just thinking of this, "Yes sir, I understand."
I started following his instructions, freezing and warming both nipples, feeling so excited, the sensations so different but both stimulating me more than I had felt ever before. I was amazed that just doing this to my nipples could make me so excited!
After about 5 minutes, he said, "Alright, stop! How did this make you feel?"
"Oh sir, I am so excited! My nipples are so hard and sensitive. Touching them was sending sensations straight through me, making me feel so alive!"
"Very very good! Now, do you know what the rubber bands are for?"