After my third cum that night, I couldn't get hard and Christina sent me home feeling hurt and humiliated.
The next day Christina called and asked me to go with her to a club that night. She is an excellent dancer and loves the activity. I can't dance but accepted her invitation in order to be with her again.
At her house, I was simply amazed at the attire she wore. It was a slinky black dress of sorts and barely covered what was left of her legs more than half way up her thigh and then hung low and open at the front, exposing her chest and the sexy curves of the top half of her pumped up breasts. The sight of her made me rock hard in seconds and my pants slightly tented. She looked down at my crotch and said "I wish you were bigger." Then she walked outside and gave me the key to lockup her house.
In the car I told her she was beautiful and sexy and I asked her why she was with me if she wanted someone more hung than me. She thanked me for the compliment and added "I enjoy teasing submissive men, especially you darling. But let's be clear too, you are not hung," she giggled.
I felt angry at her for calling me on that. Her sting hung in the air for several moments before I said "that hurts."
"Of course it does," she began "but I know you also like that. It's a rush for you to be put in your place and it's a rush for me to humiliate you."
She was right. I was feeling a rush but needed to also be honest about my feelings. "it especially hurts because just when I think I could fall for you, you make a dig and I question whether I need this or you."
"Oh darling, are you falling for me?"
"Yes, I think I am. It really rang in last night after you sent me home. I felt so lonely without you and I realized I need you in my life."
"I'm going to make it up to you tonight darling. You'll see."
I thanked her and then she asked if this was the first time I failed to get hard after having sex three times in one evening and I felt a rush of embarrassment cover my face all over again.
"I can't remember," I stammered.
"Well, it may not matter after tonight."
I cringed and felt smaller in my car seat. The wheel felt bigger in my hands as I gripped my fingers around it. "What do you mean?"
"I have other options available to me."
"I thought we were exclusive," I whined.
"No darling. You may consider yourself exclusive to me but I will never be exclusive to you."
"Why not?"
"Because I need more than one lover can give me."
"That's not fair."
"I may not be right for you darling," she said as she put her hand on my thigh and moved it toward my cock, "you will have to decide that for yourself."
Her hand felt great on my thigh as I thought about what she said. She's the hottest looking, most sexually aggressive woman I've encountered. The loneliness after leaving her last night was awful and something I did not want to repeat anytime soon, so I decided to go with the flow and asked "what are the rules then?" She laughed. "Silly man."
"I just want to know in case I meet another woman. What are my options?"
"Well, putting it that way, I prefer that we're participating with her together."
"Wait a minute. You can go get men and fuck behind my back but if I meet someone else you want to participate?
"Yes."
"You're serious?"
"Darling don't let this upset you."
"It is upsetting. This is very upsetting to me."
She moved closer to me and placed her elbow on the top of my car seat and her hand on the side of my head. Her fingers combed into my hair and she said "I enjoyed playing with you last night. It was incredible to feel you surrender your will to me, to give in to my wishes."
I felt myself getting hard as I remembered our session. "I have fantasized but never done anything like that with anyone else," I said. "You are a dream come true for me Christina. I enjoy your company and you make my fantasies come to life."
"Oh darling, you're so sweet." she said and planted a lipstick kiss on my cheek.
"I'm not looking for anything outside our relationship," I continued. "I want to date you only and I just thought that you would do the same."
"Honey, I'm not dating anyone but you. Ok?"
"You're not?"
"No, I'm not. I like you. I want to explore with you. Like last night and the fantasies we shared. I enjoyed your surrender and I want it again," she said firmly.
"I want to surrender to you too. It feels strangely intoxicating."
"Yes it does." She moved her hand to my inner thigh and said "For me too. Maybe I pushed a little to hard too soon. After last night, I thought it was clear I would take on additional lovers and you were okay with that."
"Last night, we succumbed to our lust and fantasies, but I don't know if I can do that for real."
"mmmm, darling last night was incredible in so many ways. I think you can do anything when we get hot like that."
"I don't know."
"I saw it in your eyes darling. The desire to please me was there. Its all I thought about while I masterbated on the bed and you were kneeling on the floor, waiting for my invitation to rejoin me."
"You did."
"uh huh, I did darling. Your surrender is a gift and I want to keep receiving it as long as you'll give it to me."
"You do. Really?"
"yes. I do."
"I enjoyed surrendering to you. It was peaceful to let go and perform your wishes, even admitting all those things. It felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders."
"You trusted me and everything went like it was supposed to."
"Everything except being sent home."
"Yeah, that was a mistake. I'm sorry." She said.
"It's ok Christina. Thank you. I like talking with you about us. I really like you and I want to be the one who pleasures you. I don't know how else to explain it."
"Thank you darling. I want you to trust me, especially when we play. It's all for mutual pleasure. As for dating, there is no one I'd rather be with than you. And in the bedroom, I want you with me," she said.
"Christina can I tell you something?"
"What?"
"It hurts when you make references to my cock being small and you prefer larger cocks but it also turns me on."
"I know, darling. It's when the chemistry is right, we get turned on by things we would never do otherwise." And, believe me when I tell you, your cock is a nice size and I have pleasure when you're inside me."
"I'm getting turned on by our conversation and the ways in which you are touching me."
"Me too," she said and cupped one hand under my chin and turned my gaze toward her. Then she leaned in and kissed me, open-mouthed. Her tongue danced with mine and suddenly the car veered and I broke away from her kiss to concentrate on the road. Her hand moved back to my chin, cupping it and then she moved herself closer to me and turned my gaze back to her again and kissed me once more. This time, I braked to slow down the car and we made out while the car was stopped in the center of the road.
The car lit up with light and I realized traffic was approaching. Christina moved back to her seat and said, "pull over to the next street. I want you to fuck me." As the car moved into the right lane and accelerated, I looked at Christina. Her feet were resting on the seat, her knees were parted wide and she was openly masterbating.
"Oh gawd, I'm so wet. Hurry darling, I want you inside me."
I found a turn off and exited onto a smaller road. In the darkness, I drove slowly through a series of S-turns and finally stopped at what appeared to be a meadow clearing on both sides of the road. Christina was panting and moaning loudly. After shutting off the engine, I looked at Christina and asked "how do we do this?"
She shifted toward me and placed her hand on my thigh and then she palmed my crotch and massaged it. "ooo, you are hard, I like that!" she said.
"Me too."
Her fingers traced the outline of my cock. Her touch was light and I yearned for greater friction. I looked over at her and saw her dress riding very high on her thigh. Her right breast was so visible I could almost see the nipple. My cock jumped under her touch and I swallowed audibly.
"Is the way I'm dressed turning you on? When I looked up, we made eye contact and I simply nodded.
"Did your wife ever dress like this for you."
I shook my head no and faintly wondered why she brought that up.
"It doesn't matter, she's gone and I'm in your life now aren't I?"
I felt her apply pressure to the outline of my cock. It felt damn good and I nodded in her direction. Christina was turning me on and breaching a taboo subject at the same time. I wanted her to continue and I wanted her to let my memories of my wife rest in peace.
"Yes."