The smell is the first thing you notice. The soft, slightly sweet smell of incense bruising the air, hinting at spice and wood and unnamed unguents. But there is something else more familiar and you strain your eyes through the gloom beyond the door to try and see. I am waiting for you.
I have lit only candles. I don't want you to be familiar with the room. I don't want you to see everything here. Just now, I don't want you to see anything at all. As you step further into the room I tell you to stop. You try to look round.
"Stay where you are." I command, "Close your eyes." Your shoulders tense and you look down, closing your eyes, doing as you are told. You will have to trust me. You are already feeling nervous and a little afraid. You can sense me as I come to you and your breathing becomes shallower. I like the way your head is bowed and your arms are loose by your sides. You jump slightly as I touch your back, which is satisfying but I need you to be a little calmer than that. I spread my fingers out, running them down your spine, pushing the nails inwards. You can feel them dig into the skin through your clothing and you steady yourself against them. Good.
I stretch out my hand on your shoulders, enjoying the feel of your neck muscles. You can feel my warm breath on your face now. You swallow. You want to look. I push my hand up into your hair, holding it tightly, taking pleasure in your intake of breath. You feel how it pulls. I force your face down into the thing I have in my other hand.
There is a sudden small panic of brief suffocation and, as you breath in, the nature of that other familiar scent becomes clear. Latex. That slightly chocolate pungence. Perhaps a little bitter, a natural aromatic - and your body reacts. It reacts the way it has always done to the smell and the cold, smooth, thick, elastic skin. You can feel your cock swell.
" Stay still", I say, "Keep your eyes closed." I offer up the object and you nuzzle into it as I reach down between your legs to feel the growing bulge. You automatically move your hips forward.
"I said stay still". You stand up straighter, eager to show me you will comply. I take the latex object and unzip it. It is a hood. You start to tremble in delicious anticipation when you realise and I fit it over your head and zip up the back, making sure it is snug and that you can breath adequately from the nose as I zip up the eyes and mouth. You can smell it. You can taste it. It caresses your skin with its fragrance and with its sticky, oily substance. Since childhood this has been your fantasy. The delight that accompanied your first sticky fumblings into adulthood and beyond. The shame that you tried to hide, strike out of your life so many times but which has always returned with renewed sweetness, reminding you of the exaltation of sex.
I take your hand and lead you further into the room. You can feel my fingers loosen the belt of your jeans, undo, unzip, pull down, undress.. Your erection is now straining against the material of your pants. Its almost uncomfortable in its confinement and it amuses me briefly to see Calvin Kleins so tortured. I help them off and down. Naked from the waist down, I now strip you completely, pulling your T shirt off and over your head.
You are my creature now, standing in the middle of the half light of my room, waiting. You are hot, aware of your arousal, slightly humiliated by the ease of this excitement, made vulnerable by your nakedness and cut off from sensation by the pungent confinement of the hood. You can feel your heart rate quicken and anticipation floods your mouth with saliva like the expectation in hunger of a favourite meal. Except you have absolutely no idea what is going to happen next.
I leave you standing there for a moment and admire you. The mask cuts off your identity but this makes you my special thing. Something only I am allowed to know. I can see your chest move with the slight panic that you are controlling. Your shoulders are tense but your arms loose. Your legs slightly parted, nicely shaped and muscular. And the most vivid thing about you... your cock is huge and hard, almost a separate living creature that makes an obvious demand, despite your submission.
"Fucking slut! Look at you, stood there with your cock like that, like you're a little girl with your pussy all wet .. I can smell you, whore!" You hear me and hang your head, you can feel the blush of embarrassment prickle across your skin momentarily. You want to say something emolliating, apologetic, pacifying. But even if you could speak through the hood you know that the words would not come because I have control over everything, even your tongue.