I got married way too young to a really sweet man. I was happy sure, but bored out of my mind. I had kinky dirty thoughts and couldn't share with my husband. He was so wholesome, he'd be mortified. For several months I read personals online and fantasized about the man who could make my fantasies come true. Only after my 12 year anniversary at 32 years old, did I get the nerve to put up an ad and find a master.
I considered my options carefully. I am attractive, average body, successful career woman. I'd need to find someone who seemed smarter than me, more powerful, able to take control. I found it hard to take a lot of the men seriously, especially if they sent replies full of slang or incorrect grammar. I also was sure I needed an older man.
I put an ad on Craigslist. It read, "Looking for one special dominant man who will help me explore all of my fantasies. Must be 45+, fit, married and able to host. Must want no long term friendship or romance. This is strictly for very kinky sex. It is about my fantasy, which is to be your slut."
Immediately I started getting responses. Guys who were 18. Guys who cannot host or meet during the days. A few single men. It was so discouraging. I finally found 4 ads that seemed to match what I was looking for. I replied to Dirtydom first. Asked for a photo and sent him a naked body shot of myself. He wrote back what he was into, and ignored my request for a photo. He sounded very into pain, which is not my thing. I was looking for something else. Next I replied to CallMeSir, who was polite and sent me photos right away of his face and his body. I was a little annoyed because I asked about body and didn't know yet if I wanted to ever see the face. I had not formulated my plan.
But I continued to talk to Sir. He was 54, 5'8", fit, salt and pepper hair and handsome. He was open to anything I wanted and took over the conversations right away. It was natural for him to take control and me to be submissive. Even better was that he had a house in Ct with his wife and an apartment in the city. I was sold.
I told Sir through email that I wanted to push myself. My fantasies focus around humiliation, being a total slut. Doing things no one who knew me could ever imagine. He assured me that he could make me feel like nothing but a dirty, worthless cunt. If he accepted me that is. I was dripping wet and totally hooked.
Sir told me he would meet me and interview me IF I agreed to have no limits. I had to trust him to make every choice for me and let him control everything. If ever I wanted out, I could just say Out, but that he would never see me again if I choose to take the out. That seemed so easy to me. I do what I like and have an out anytime. I agreed quickly.
I met Sir at a fancy oyster bar in the bottom of his building. He was at a table, striking. I walked up to him smiling, feeling nervous but also sexy and excited. I had worn a black pencil skirt and a pink sweater. As I sat down, Sir did not smile. His first words to me were, "Did you not think I deserve you showing up here looking sexy?"
I was shocked and embarrassed, totally deflated. I mustered an apology. "Go to the bathroom so I can see your ass" he ordered me. I got up and walked self-consciously to the bathroom. Once there, I stared in the mirror and thought to myself that I needed to leave. Who was this asshole who thinks he can talk to me like some desperate slut? I felt angry. Humiliated. And so turned on.