It was six months into our relationship that I knew I wanted him to own me. To control and to dominate me.
He was the sweetest guy; a gentle lover and we enjoyed good conversation.
Soft lips, strong hands, and gentleness to his sensuality that I could and would awaken at the most unusual times.
Slowly I gave up control to him, letting him decide our intimacies.
Our love play.
He knew about my ex's, I had been as honest as I could without wanting to hurt him.
I knew about his.
Now a year on, and I was a different person.
Oh, to family and friends I was still the same person. Beautiful, polite, charming, with a hint of sarcastic wit.
But in the bedroom, I would do whatever he asked of me.
Tonight, he had me wear the new red corset, and thong he had bought for me. My hair was tied back, and I was tied to the bed spread-eagle.
He read stories to me before touching me.
Erotic stories.
After reading, he would touch me to see how wet I had become. He liked playing with my pussy then, feeling the wet, and warmth of me, spreading it over my body.
He took pleasure in seeing me squirm under him, against my bonds, as he ran his fingers, wet with my fluids over my breasts, down my belly and back to my wet folds. Then his fingers would be at my lips and he would make me suck them.
Tonight however, after the story, and while he played with me, he asked about my day.
"And what did you buy?"
"I bought silk ties, the bras you told me to get, the lubricant."
"Did you see anyone?"
"Lots of people," I replied, purposely misinterpreting the question.
He squeezed the sensitive nub and I cried in slight pain.
"Any one you know?"
"No."
He squeezed again.
"Aagh," I gasped.
"Liar," he said.
"I saw Daniel."
Daniel was one of my ex's, the guy I had been seeing, just before Darien.
"And what did you do?"
"We talked."
He now pushed a finger into me, and I gasped as he thrust it in and out.
"About what, little Bird?"
"Him, me, us, you, all sorts."
He pushed a second finger in and asked if I was going to see him again.
"I said I'd meet him for coffee tomorrow."
"Good little Bird," he cooed.
Another finger, he sped up, he moved harder and faster, knowing this was how I liked it.
"Did you want him?"
"No," I cried.
He hurt me again, just a little.
"You did, didn't you?"
"A little," I admitted.
"I want you to see him," he said, to my surprise. "I want you to bring him here."
"Why?" I asked.
"I have my reasons." He removed his hand, and lay on top of me and in one smooth thrust, completely sheathed himself in me.
When I finished my shower the next morning, I found that Darien had chosen my clothes.
The red bra, and a red sundress. No underwear?
I looked at him, enquiring.
He didn't answer, just helped me dress, and sent me on my way.
Daniel was waiting nervously for me at the coffee shop, and I understood his nerves.
The dress was low cut, and form hugging. He would be able to see the lack of underwear.
"Susie," he greeted me.
"Hey," I replied.
He ordered our coffees, and we drank, talking about nothing in particular.
I could see his eyes on my chest, noticed the quickness of his breath.
I was reminded of how I had always felt around him, constantly turned on. We could have been talking about rubbish, poverty, computers, anything and I would still want him to touch me, to enter me, to have me.
After I was finished, I stood up to go.
He grabbed me hand and kissed me before I could say anything.
"Please, let me touch you?" He begged, "I've missed you."
I wordlessly led him to his car. He unlocked it, and we hurried inside and kissed again. He tasted like cherries, just like I remembered.
I pulled away, and gave him directions to my flat.
We drove in silence, not even touching all the way there.
When we arrived, I unlocked the door, and led him inside.
With it closed, Daniel pushed me against it, pulled my dress up and plunged two fingers into me, closing his lips on mine.
We pressed our bodies together, and he pushed further.
We heard a low chuckle of amusement and quickly pulled away.
Darien stood at the doorway to the lounge, wearing a pair of black pants and nothing else. His crouch was engorged, and straining against the fly.
"Isn't his interesting?" He asked, his voice low and seductive.
I didn't know what to do, so I stayed where I was.
"Poor little Bird, so confused," Darien said. "How about you come sit down." It wasn't a question. My body recognised the voice of its master and obeyed, until Daniel grabbed my arm and held me back.