I know I broke the rules, Sir. I'm not saying I didn't and I'll accept whatever punishment you see fit. But I just want you to keep in mind, Sir, that in part this is what you've been making me into.
--A ruler breaker?--
No, Sir. Not a rule breaker, a pet who... who wants cock, Sir. You've been programming me haven't you, Sir? Not to break the rules, never that, but you tell me to say things, to say I love cock, not your cock like I try to say, but you tell me to leave that off. You tell me just to want cock, don't you tell me that, Sir?
--I do tell you that.--
And you do talk about programming me, training me, don't you, Sir? At first I thought you were just playing, but you kept repeating it. You do want my mouth to water when I see cock, don't you, Sir? You want my pussy to get wet when tall men's eyes wander over my body. That wasn't just a game to you, was it? Was it, Sir??
--No of course not.--
Good. I mean, because when I knew you meant it I started to listen. How many times have we played like that, Sir? How many times have you told me to open my mouth so you could see how it would look? How many times have you asked me to beg for cock, not ''your'' cock, but just cock, any cock? How many times have you asked me to be naughty? To be your naughty girl? And how many times have you punished me for not being naughty enough? For not letting enough men touch my tits?
Again, it doesn't change the rules I broke. But I just want you to understand. Its... been working. All of it. When you have my over the bench, after enough spanking or enough flogging, when I get into subspace and you're saying those naughty things... oh god, the thoughts and images just get into my brain and they go deep, and each time it seems to take less to bring me back into it. The other day you were taking me from behind after that... aggressive... spanking and you said, I don't remember, something like, "You look so good taking cock."
--You do.--
You do like to tell me that. But in that moment, the way you said it, it seemed almost out of body, like you were watching me take someone else's cock. And you were so happy about it and I knew you'd be happy my mind was thinking such naughty thoughts I began imagining how I'd look taking cock for you, and I imagined your cock was really a kinky friend's instead, or a stranger, or a big black cock. I imagined them taking turns on me and I know this sounds silly, but your cock even seemed to feel a bit bigger to match my imagination.
When you showed me that other guy's dick pick while we were playing and asked me to imagine it on front of me... well I blushed and acted shy, but when I closed my eyes, I saw that cock as if it was right in front of me. When you asked me to open my mouth, I felt it immediately watering, readying itself for that other cock. And when I say vivid, I don't really know if that does it justice.
I joke about being dickmatized, and it's not really hypnosis, but its like those dreams I have that are so real I think they might have actually happened. See, Sir, in my head, I've already sucked ''so much'' cock for you. Strapped to the bench while you're fucking me, on the bed while you're flogging me...
--All under my immediate direction, and you still haven't told me anything.--
I know, Sir. And I know I haven't told you the details yet. I'm not stalling. I'll tell you everything so you can know how to best punish me. But... I just feel like it might be better if I could be... servicing you in some way while I tell you? I can see your cock is already so hard, Sir. Would you like me to stroke it while I confess everything? Or perhaps you'd rather have a flogger or cane ready, and my tits or ass ready to receive your comments as you have them?
--Stroke my cock, but I want needles ready for punishment.--
Needles too, Sir?! If that's what you wish. I don't know where the supplies are, Sir. Okay, I'm glad you'll get them. I'll get the lube and be completely naked and be waiting for you. Don't worry, I shaved completely, I prepared to be as pleasing as possible since I've been such a bad girl.
Oh that's cold, are we starting with a needle, Sir?! Oh, just preparing now so you won't have to wait. Gloves too, that's smart.