Then one night she called me over to the apartment. I scurried over, thankful that the banishment had passed but fearful still as to what caused it in the first place and what lay ahead for us. The past week of separation had left me completely confused and somewhat angry. Had I not been doing everything she wanted? Was it enough? Was there something she wanted from me that she wasn't getting? I resolved myself to find a way to ask her about it without making her more angry.
When I rang the doorbell, Allison opened the door for me and leaned against the door frame. I stood rooted to the spot - my immediate arousal instantly making me forget the worries of the past few weeks. She was wearing nothing but a lace garter and black stockings that clung tightly to her thighs. On her feet was a pair of black stilettos that she had "requested" that I buy for her birthday. Her fair complexion was highlighted by some dark red lipstick and a string of pearls she owned. She followed my eyes and slowly took the hand away from her crotch to reveal a freshly shaven pussy.
She smiled as I stood there staring openmouthed at her in a way I knew would normally draw at least a glare and more likely a smack across my face. Afterall, I was not allowed to "check her out" because, as she put it, I was the "slut" in the relationship and not her. One time Allison caught me looking at her breasts as I was toweling her off after her shower, and I spent the afternoon naked and on my knees in our cold tile bathroom cleaning grout as punishment. Even worse was when she saw me steal a glance at her friend Catherine's ass in skin tight gym clothes. I had worshiped her stylish confidant Catherine from afar, and viewed her mix of Asian and Black features as a stark and exotic contrast to Allison's almost generically American look. As my relationship with Allison got more and more complicated, I started to retreat into my crush on Catherine more - even going so far as to sign up for an economics class that I heard her tell Allison she wanted to take and positioning myself in the class everyday to watch her from afar. I had viewed it as mostly a harmless crush that I kept to myself, but Allison had seen through my transparency easily enough. Allison teased me about it at first, spanking me a bit and accusing me of stalking Catherin but I denied I was attracted to her. But when Allison caught me looking at Catherine that day, she flew into a rage, dragged me home and used her belt on me for the first time. She beat me viciously, the whole time repeatedly asking me whether that "Asian slut" was what I wanted while I whimpered my denial in pain. The marks and bruises from that beating stayed with me for a week, but she justified it by saying she was only teaching me a lesson about "objectifying women."
So despite my arousal I became instantly suspicious of Allison's nearly naked greeting and reflexively averted my eyes. Allison picked up on my suspicion but only smiled again and turned and walked towards the bedroom, never saying a word to me. I took advantage of the opportunity to gaze at her perfect ass framed by the garter, all the time wondering what was in store for me.
She got into to bed and positioning herself slightly oddly on the bed she seductively opened her legs a bit to draw my attention down there.
"Well," she said. "What are you going to do now?"
I didn't need any more encouragement. I immediately stripped and came over to her - instinctively positioning myself to take her to climax with my mouth. She stopped me and pulled me up towards her.
"Nevermind that. I want you inside of you."
I couldn't believe it. She had not let me enter her vaginally in months and it had never happened without me first making sure that her other needs were met. And then she kissed me on the lips and told me she wanted to make love. I was astounded. In that instant I was as happy as I had been in months. The romance and desire of when we first met, which I had given up for lost amid all the pain and degradation of the past few months, wasn't gone after all. She still wanted me. She still needed me. She wanted to please me and make me happy. As I entered her wetness, I dared to hope again that maybe she was as consumed with me as I was with her.
"I love you," I said.
She smiled and guided me inside her. I stroked in and out of her quickly, lost in the desire of being inside of her again. I was consumed with just being with her again without feeling ashamed of myself for what I had been forced to do. Only a few minutes passed but I was close to coming when she pushed me gently out. She moved to the side of the bed facing the closet and guided me to her side.
"Come on me baby," she whispered.
I did as she asked, stroking myself until I came with a long gasp and a shudder. Her breasts and stomach were covered in my come, and a small trickle slowly made its way to her freshly shaven pussy. Allison's face, however, was impassive.
"You can leave now."
Confused, I looked at her strangely.
She shrugged and nodded with her head towards the door.
"Now."
"But, I don't under -"
"Shut the fuck up and get out now," her voice was sharper now.
Red-faced and dejected, I got dressed. I moped slowly towards the door, glancing at her as I left the bedroom door. She had remained sitting on the side of the bed, legs spread, drenched in my semen.
"NOW!" she yelled.
I turned and walked out the door dejected and bewildered. What had I done? I had assumed that this was her way of making up to me for all the horrible things she had done recently. Apparently I was wrong. I stood for a minute outside the door, wanting to go back inside and beg her to let me stay and to ask her for forgiveness. But I knew that would be a horrible mistake and one that would not end well for me. In my post-coital state, I was angry with her and I would not give her the satisfaction of seeing me beg to be with her again. I stormed out the door, vowing to not return - all the while knowing that even as made the promise to myself I would break it. I would gladly run back right now if she wanted me.
I walked quickly out of the building eager to go home and fume, but I noticed that Allison's light in her bedroom was still on. As I thought about it, I could never recall her leaving the light on when we had sex. Despite all her aggressiveness with me she was still somewhat shy and she insisted that the shades be drawn and the light was off so that no one could see into her ground floor apartment.
I lingered for a moment weighing the decision. On the one hand, I was intensely curious as to what she was doing in there. Was she masturbating? If so, why did she kick me out? I had spent many an evening waiting for her please herself while I licked her tight asshole or sucked on her toes. Why would she care if I was there now? On the other hand, I knew that if she caught me spying on her, she would be furious with me. But as I contemplated I realized there was no real choice. If she caught me, she would have to punish me severely and punishment meant that I would get a chance to be with her again. As painful and humiliating as that encounter was likely to be and as sad as it seemed, I was willing to anger her if only to spend more time with her.
Curiosity having beaten out anger, I squeezed behind the hedges and walked carefully along the outside of the building. There was mud and standing pools of water everywhere and I needed to use all my balance to navigate in the semi-darkness. I passed the first window and saw Allison's next door neighbor on the couch playing video games. A large pipe was in the middle of the table and his friend semi-coherently gazed on. I had often seen him as I left Allison's apartment and the looks he gave me left no doubt as to whether or not he had heard my cries of pain or Allison's guttural orgasms. As I passed his window, I realized that I was a bit too close to the window and that he may see me, but fortunately he was too far gone to notice me. I sighed a little. Is this what I had been reduced to? A Peeping Tom spying on his girlfriend? It was pathetic and I thought about turning back and just going home, but my self-flagellation was quickly extinguished when I heard voices from the next window. I moved quickly to position myself in the corner of her window. The lights were still on and there was a crack in the Venetian blinds that was fortunately just a little above eye level.
I was stunned at what I saw. Allison was still on the side of the bed with her legs spread, but she had leaned back a little and was grabbing onto the corner of the mattress with white knuckles. On her knees before Allison was her friend Catherine, completely naked and carefully licking my come off of Allison's body while she massaged Allison's bright red clit. For the second time that evening I was absolutely speechless. I could not comprehend that Allison would be having sex with Catherine. The familiar refrain of the cuckold instantly popped into my head. How could she do this to me?