[Author's note: This story was originally posted in "Lesbian Sex", but due to the heavy sadomasochistic themes of the series, I have moved it to "BDSM".]
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--Dr Pacetti's Notes:
To recap: Katy has submitted to Sophie's control, and Sophie has subjected her to a vicious whipping. To their shared surprise, this has resulted in Katy enjoying the first orgasm of her life. Now, still tied to Sophie's bed, she is coming down from the high.
--Katy's Statement:
For a while I was aware only of the lightness, the euphoria, and the exhaustion. Then I felt myself ablaze with heat. Finally I became aware of wetness, coating my body, and soaking into the crumpled fabric beneath me.
Then I became aware of Miss Sophie, sitting beside my head and affectionately stroking my hair, in that way I longed for. Her voice was warm and kind and was saying "Good girl..." over and over.
"Thank you Miss Sophie. Thank you for giving me what I need. Thank you so much."
"You're very welcome, baby. I'm so proud of you."
I looked up at her and saw she was beaming with delight, and a sort of amusement.
"You do realise," Sophie chuckled, "that you just came from pure pain? Do you know what that means?"
I couldn't explain how the pain had prompted the reaction, only that it had to do with all the associated feelings: powerlessness, humiliation, trust...
"I'm a freak, Miss Sophie?"
Sophie laughed and leant down to peck kisses over my face. Her warm hands slid over my body.
"Well, yes Katy. That's true. But I was going to say that presents a problem."
More kisses, and I dared to steal a few of my own. Once or twice she caught my lip between her teeth, bit gently, then whispered, "Good girl".
She sat back and pulled off her t-shirt. I stared at her, fascinated and excited. Sophie's body was long and toned, clearly powerful without being heavily muscled. She wasn't deeply tanned, but beside me her skin looked healthy and bronzed. And now she lounged casually, in only her underwear, and I was allowed to look.
"Thank you Miss Sophie. You're wonderful."
"Oh, thank you, Katy. That's very sweet. But yes, you're a freak. And yes, that's the problem." She stood up and began walking around the room and I drank in her every movement. "On one hand you're a sick little pervert who needs pain to have an orgasm, correct?"
I nodded. If Sophie hadn't been so delighted with me, this would have been shameful to admit. But I felt warm and secure. And the insult thrilled me.
"Yes Miss Sophie. Thank you."
"But on the other hand you're a wicked little shit whose behaviour must be corrected and controlled through punishment. Yes?"
"Yes Miss Sophie," I said, and added, because it felt right, "I'm sorry Miss Sophie. I don't want to be a wicked little shit, I promise."
I desperately wanted her to believe this, but she wasn't listening to me. She stood at the foot of the bed, leaning on the frame. Every subtle twitch of muscle, every angle of every joint, every highlight on her skin was mesmerising.
"So if your reward is pain... your punishment can only be much harsher pain. I can't see any other way."
"No Miss Sophie. I understand. I'm sorry."
Sophie smiled. "And, by the way, I want you to be clear that you don't get orgasms whenever you want them. You ask permission. Beg for them. And if I don't permit it, you do not cum. That first one was okay, but don't do it again. Understand?"
I had no idea how I could prevent that feeling overtaking me, but I knew I would have to find a way. It felt good that she had faith in me.
"Yes Miss Sophie. I promise. And... please... I promise I'll try not to deserve punishment. I want you to be proud of me." I sounded so stupid. But I needed her to know, and suddenly I didn't mind feeling stupid.
"Good girl." Sophie slipped around and sat on the edge of the bed next to my foot. She looked seriously at me. "I am very pleased with how good you're being. I know you're trying hard."
I nodded and felt ridiculously proud.
"And I need you to keep on trying. Because I'm afraid I have to teach you the difference between Good-Girl pain and Bad-Girl pain. I think that's important. What do you think?"
I was well aware I had already had the Good-Girl pain. I didn't want the Bad-Girl pain, but presumably that was point. And I desperately wanted Sophie to be pleased with me, whatever that took.
"Please teach me."
"Good girl." Sophie's hand began stroking up and down my leg, and I was electrified by this simple contact. I was also reminded that my skin was shockingly tender. "Tell me why I should punish you. What have you done wrong this evening, can you remember?"
I couldn't think. I couldn't remember a single thing before the burning, thundering orgasm, as if those few intense seconds had wrung everything else out of my brain. I wriggled nervously against my bonds, suddenly worried.
Sophie must have seen something in my expression because she smiled kindly and moved up the bed to sit near to my face again. She stroked my cheek and brushed her thumb over my trembling lips.
"Can you remember? You arrived late, didn't you?"
"Yes Miss Sophie."
"And what else? I told you to masturbate, yes? What did you do?"
"I didn't... do it properly. And I answered back."
"What else? After that?"
"I didn't want to tell you about Karen. I'm sorry."
"Mmm... They might seem like small things, and I know you were nervous and ashamed and humiliated. But those can't be excuses, not for you. You defied me, didn't you? You disobeyed."
"Yes Miss Sophie."