I sat at my kitchen table with the envelope from James the very next morning. I was trembling with fear and anticipation as I slowly opened the stiff paper.
Kim,
I am very pleased with your progress. I know it has been difficult for you to come to grips with the aspects of yourself that have been hidden away. You have tasted the freedom you can have from releasing your inhibitions and submitting yourself to me. I want you to have more than just a taste. You are to come to my home at 7:00 pm on Friday evening, two weeks from now. You will give yourself over to me until Sunday afternoon. During that time, I will dictate your every move, your every thought, and every action. You will be free to experience without having to be responsible for anything but reveling in the experience. Can you be that free? Can you let go that much? I think so.
Come to me prepared to be a total sexual being. Leave society's rules and standards behind, but bring the lady that knows those rules. Lock her in a corner of your mind. Allow her to be shocked. Let her see what you can be.
James
How could anyone know me that well? Not even Matt, my husband, sees that deeply into me. Hell, even I don't know myself as well as Mister James. I trembled with fear and excitement. Could I give myself over like that? Could I get away for a weekend without arousing Matt's suspicions? What would happen to me?
I was afraid that if I went for a weekend, I would never be able to come back to my normal self. Just an afternoon was so engrossing that I felt out of phase with the world around me. What would a weekend do to me?
I spent the next couple of days trying to figure a way to spend a weekend away from Matt that wouldn't raise his curiosity. On Thursday Matt came to me saying that he was going to attend a seminar in Dallas over the same weekend that James wanted me. While Matt was busy explaining the details of the chemical engineering paper that he would be giving for his group, I was busy thinking about what James might have in store for me.
I began the week-and-a-half of waiting with an attitude of fear and with a lot of hesitation about spending the weekend with James. I finished the waiting with an attitude of trembling excitement. The transformation seemed very gradual to me. I gave myself over to James and hedonism over that period of time. My "real" life became less real. It was a holding action to keep me busy until James would have me under his control again β no, that's not quite it. I was under his control the whole time, real life was to keep me busy until he wanted my body again.
I saw Matt off to his seminar. He said he would be busy and probably not be able to call until late. I told him that I would be out with friends a lot and to just leave a message if I wasn't around when he called. As I went back into the apartment, I wondered if the wife Matt came home to would be very different from the one who saw him off β or at least the one he believed saw him off. Matt certainly didn't see the excited and horny slut that I hid under the surface of respectability.
The drive to James' house was quicker this time. I didn't spend long getting to the door, either. To my surprise, things began identically as they had the last time I visited. I stripped in the parlor and put on the silk blindfold quickly. Just as before, the pretty young Latina led me into the basement.
She stopped me once we had walked partway across the basement. I could hear her moving things around. I felt her put something around each ankle. It fit snugly, but was soft to the skin. I guessed it was some sort of cuff. She put something similar on my wrists. I could feel something dangle on the outside of the wrist cuffs.
I imagined how I looked. Were the cuffs black leather? What would happen next? Where was James?
She pushed me back and laid me onto a big bed. My hands were lifted over my head and I heard a metallic click as they were secured to something. Matching clicks announced that my ankle cuffs had been similarly secured.
"Hello, Kim," James said, his rich voice penetrating my soul. "You have quite a weekend in front of you. I hope you are ready for it. Are you ready for a little depravity?"
"Yes, Mister James, I'm ready," I was surprised at the strength of my voice. I was quivering with fear and excitement on the inside. My skin felt super sensitive and begged for touch. I could feel the heat and moisture between my legs.
"That's nice my little hard bodied slut. You will be put through your paces this weekend." I heard him turn and his voice receded. "My Carmelita will get things rolling, I have some business to attend to tonight."