Three dates in three weeks, three disasters, Allie just wanted to be fucked regularly. It should be the simplest thing, she thought, but somehow she could never negotiate all the associated social interactions.
Her last attempt at hooking up with a BDSM dating site partner was the worst. Conner described himself as an experienced master who would take her places she had never been before, which ended up being a pizza joint and his bedroom in his mom's house. A pair of fluffy leopard print handcuffs and some mediocre and quick missionary sex and she was out the door with no desire to go back.
Wanting so much more, she went back on the site again and found herself intrigued by a new user named NoDramaCaptor. He told her he only wanted someone to restrain and fuck, long term. He made it clear that he wasn't looking for a lover, just someone to use. When she asked for how long, he made it clear that if he found this person, it would be forever.
She didn't believe him and told him so. That's not even possible, she protested.
"Why not," he replied. "If I found the right person to consent, I truly would use them regularly and never let them go."
She went into a bit of a swoon looking at the text, thinking of new possibilities. She thought of all the disappointing times when previous partners let her go and how sadly devastated that made her feel. Physical restraint gave her this impossible high that when it went away brought her to tears. It was that emotional rollercoaster that kept her looking for more.
She told him that she could see being that someone, but it would never work. When he asked why, she explained that she was not a very good slave. That she doesn't enjoy pleasing a man. That she was way too selfish in that she loved being fucked but was not good at fucking.
"That's the beauty of this," he texted her. "You don't have to be good at it, you just have to exist. Your captor makes all of the decisions, and it's his job to get his enjoyment from using you. Once you decide to be his, nothing you do would matter anyway."
She thought about it some more and couldn't help but touch herself, rubbing her clit through the sweat pants she was wearing. "There's no way," she typed with her available hand. "I've told a few on this site about this fantasy and they all convinced me that it could not be done."
"I say it can," he answered. "All one needs is to commit and work out the details. What are your reasons it can't work?"
She thought a moment then typed a list of reasons that included: that keeping someone captive probably was illegal; that they would have to stop if medical treatment was needed; that constant attention would be needed for safety reasons; that it would be a logistical nightmare to keep someone restrained that long; that it would result in neurological, emotional, and mental damage to the woman; that one of them would tire of it eventually and want the relationship to end; and that it pretty much would end any chance at a normal life for either or both.
He countered each of her reservations.
"When I keep this person captive," he typed back, "no one will know she exists, so there will be no one to notify any authority, and therefore it wouldn't matter if it were legal. It would just be happening.
"She would understand when she consented to this that it is a complete risk. Professional medical help would never be an option. Injury or illness would either get better through over-the-counter medicine and basic first aid or it wouldn't.
"She would not need constant attention because she would know going in that when restrained, which would be always, if no one was there when she was hungry she would starve. If no one was around as the house burned around her, she would burn with all of his other possessions.
"There would be no logistical nightmare. I would always have a cage, closet, stable, iron cross, or whatever needed to keep you available for me to use, or even abuse if that was my mood."
She picked up that he changed the focus from some random captive to her specifically. This made her shudder a little as she now had reached inside her pants, rubbing just a little slower and a bit more deliberately.
He continued, "You are right about the neurological damage. Your limbs might go permanently numb and you may develop pains that never go away. But we wouldn't care because you would still be available to me and still quite fuckable. Same for emotional or mental damage, restrained, you wouldn't be a danger to yourself or others, and you would still be there for me to fuck.
"You are correct that I may tire of you but I don't see that happening. I can think of dozens of foods I like that I've eaten for years, and I still like and eat them. And even more than that, I will always need to fuck, and while it may not always be with you, I will never lose that need. I, like most men if they were honest, will fuck whatever is available, and having you always near me, so helpless, will mean I will always want to use you.
"As for you getting tired of me, what would I care? You may even grow to hate me, although I hope that won't be the case. When we do this, you will have given me all of you forever, so I will continue to use you...forever."
"If" has turned into "when", Allie noticed, and it began to scare her that she would seriously consider this. Was she going crazy or might this just be the man who would give her the heaven that she felt she needed?
"As for normal lives, what is normal?" he went on. "Is working away your life at an unsatisfying job barely paying rent and groceries, normal? Is random dating in search of impossible love and unlikely sexual satisfaction normal? I think being useful, appreciated, fed, stimulated, and forced to truly feel a range of physical sensations and emotions is a much better pursuit for someone like you. For you, that would be your best normal. As for me, it's normal for me want to fuck. It's normal for me to try to acquire objects that make me feel happy and fulfilled. My life will stay normal."
The conversation had her finally rubbing herself to a shuddering climax. She neglected the computer for a few minutes as her brain readjusted from the waves of euphoria. She then apologized to him, asked his name, which turned out to be Josh. Allie said she had to get some sleep before work in a few hours but told him she definitely wanted to get to know him better. They agreed to chat again the next evening.
After a week of chatting, where she was getting more and more excited with the forever captive thoughts. Josh was getting more and more frustrated as he realized that Allie had no social skills, no capability for erotic chat, and gave him no perceptible signs that he was gaining her trust.
Her pictures she sent him were very honest. She didn't hide her apparent slight acne problem. Her full body picture she sent was not sexy at all, but not really unattractive. In other words her appearance and demeanor were average, but her apparent acceptance of his kink was intoxicating.
After their sixth chat session, she finally agreed to call the number he gave her. On the call she briefly admitted that the pictures he sent of himself were appealing and that his texts did make her cum. But then, obviously embarrassed, she told him good night and hung up.
Josh worked in the cybercrime division of his county's sheriff's department. Now that he had her cell phone number, he used some of the resources at work to learn more about Allie. He learned her address and last name. He found out she was living paycheck to paycheck in a rundown neighborhood in Southern California. Her father died when she was eleven. She grew up in the foster care system and according to police records, there were officers dispatched to three of her seven homes with claims of possible sexual abuse of a minor. He knew her mother was in a mental institution and her older sister was living across the country, and apparently Allie was out of touch with both of them.
Further research showed that she had been working as a part time housekeeper in a chain hotel for just a few years, and had somehow amassed thousands of dollars of credit card debt. A check of her SMS messages showed a string of recent uncomfortable date-related conversations with various men, many professing their love for her, but somehow they never lead to second dates.