Cane and Punishment
She didn't need to be punished.
I knew that, and she knew that.
But she did need to be punished.
I knew that, and she knew that.
This Risk Management Analyst in her early 50's was bent over her rustic aged-wood picnic-type dining room table in her Craftsman-style house. Beth rested on her elbows with her slacks bunched down around her ankles. They were down there because I had personally pulled them down there.
Now I was waiting. Just pacing behind her, slapping the cane in my hand, while she rested on that table with her head down. I knew how crazy this drove her. That's why I did it. And I tried to do it a little more each time.
The skylight and windows let in a generous amount of natural light, lending the room a warm, engaging ambience. A dinner party here would be nice. The light was both flattering and unflattering for her. It really highlighted the dark red shade in her short, dyed hair. But it left nothing to the imagination for her body. I know enough about how these middle-aged women feel about their bodies as they age. It's really no different than how we men feel, just deeper, more intense. I may not have been in bad shape for my 60's, but who wouldn't sell their soul for their 29-year-old waistline?
I hope it would please her to know that from my vantage point, she was really in pretty good shape. A little rounder, a little more substance as she'd aged, but she took care of herself. Exercised, ate well. It showed as I knelt behind her and pulled her panties down. Nice round full butt cheeks. A little softer and filled out from maturity, but quite attractive. Perfect targets for a cane, with some age spots and freckles here and there, and the fading imprints from our last session.
All natural. All nice.
Every time I got my face that close, I thought about how I'd like to fuck that ass. To spread those fleshy cheeks apart and rub my cock up and down her ass-crack, and between her asshole and cunt. Then take some real time to work the tip of my cock in, opening her up for the very first time. Watch her start to glisten as her body-scent turned a touch bitter with the sweat, while she took the kinds of deep breaths that makes the whole body shudder. Then stop and luxuriate in that feeling of getting in just past her sphincter. Just hold her hips with my tip in there, listening to and feeling her body acclimate itself to it's new reality, coming to terms with the fact that it had all gone too far to stop now. She was going to get her ass fucked, and how much it hurt depended on the man fucking her. She was at his mercy.
That was always the best part, for me anyway. That one brief minute that seemed to stop time as I held my tip in there. The second best part was when I eased out and eased back in, and took the time to work it in slowly now that I'd opened up her sphincter, until I gradually hit bottom, with my body resting against her glistening ass. The feel of a woman's ass squeezing your cock while she opens up is maybe the best feeling your cock ever feels. It's really hard and tight there for a bit, especially if it's their first time. I could honestly just cum right there if I wanted to. But who wants to do that and spoil all the fun?
The feelings all get jumbled up, of course. You would think the best part would be the release, cumming in her bowels after the long, hard, sweaty fucking to get there. But after the euphoria of that has long faded, it's the first penetration that lingers on. That what the mind always comes back to. That's the moment of truth.
But none of that was going to happen. It was not part of our arrangement.
Her trajectory in life up to this point probably seemed beyond clichΓ©. Beth had done the marriage-career-mother-homeowner thing and wound up with all these repressed desires when the nest had emptied a few decades later. Honestly, she and her husband had handled it better than most. They took what remained of their relationship to counseling instead of the myriad of unhealthier alternatives.
And all these dark desires she'd been holding in started spilling out during those sessions. She'd been reading online, and decided she was a sub. Being dominated turned her on. She'd always sort of known, she'd just never had the guts to verbalize it before. And her husband halfway confirmed what she'd always feared. He wasn't into it. It was too weird for him. But he still wanted to hang on to the marriage, and so did she. She did some serious negotiation, played the cards she had, and got permission to start looking for alternatives to address her needs. But no fucking anyone else. That was his red line. And she was honest, so she would honor that.
I met her at a crowded munch in a dark pub. Beth was doing the right thing by establishing herself online on F*t, and progressing to munches. She was meeting people, forging friendships, and getting some eye-opening firsthand accounts of reality in the BDSM community. We met and talked a bit in the carousel of mingling. I didn't think anything of it. She was pleasant and nice, but it's not like there was some electric connection sparking between us. But I guess she was intrigued. She reached out to me on F*t out of the blue one day, and a conversation started. She asked me about my experiences, and after a week or so of back and forth, asked me the big question...
...Would I be interested in punishing her?
Well...maybe?
She invited me over to her home in South Pasadena to discuss it further. Besides our messaging, she'd been asking around about me, and felt comfortable about this. The fact that I wanted to discuss it instead of just jumping in probably confirmed that I was a rational adult, and not some cautionary tale waiting to happen. Also, she did not want to get down to the explicit details in a crowded Starbucks.
So she laid out her situation over some iced tea in her living room. I'd heard plenty of variations of this story before, and I was basically a variation of it myself. So no snooty judgments on my part. What it came down to was that she had to act on these desires while she still could, but also honor her husband. The idea of being punished excited her. So would I be up for dominating and punishing her, without the option to fuck?
To be honest, it wasn't something I'd ever considered before. Sex & BDSM were tightly woven for me. I never could understand this separation that some people seemed intent on evangelizing for. It smacked of being a new strain of virtue signaling in the kink world. Dominance & submission have nothing to do with the core of our eroticism? Sure, tell me another one. Better to be honest about these things, and be clear about where fucking fits in the scheme of things.
But, that is just one man's opinion. I should be clear on that.
So it wouldn't have been my go-to choice, but I was intrigued. I'd never felt an intense attraction for her, and I suspected the feeling was mutual. But she was friendly, interesting, and yes...attractive. I found myself imagining how it would be to dominate her. I wanted to experience how she reacted when the hand or implement struck her bare bottom. I wanted to hear her whimper, and scream, and apologize through her tears. And I thought, maybe I could be ok stopping at just that, and going home with a raging hard-on instead of doing something about it with her.
I certainly appreciated her openness and honesty, which are essential elements in the world of kink. Without those, you have nothing. She was investing a lot of trust in me, to guide her in her first journey into kink. I felt honored. I also felt a great sense of responsibility.
So I agreed, and we got down to basics. She wanted punishment to form the primary framework of our dynamic. So, what did she need to be punished for? This stumped her a bit. Honestly, she was kind of a "good girl" naturally. I sure couldn't come up with anything, with what little I knew about her. Sure, we could just make something up, or pretend we were punishing her while really just spanking her for nothing. But I felt we needed something real to underpin this whole thing, and it came to me after a long drag from my iced tea.
I had been married before, so I sure knew what that was like. In every marriage, or long-term relationship, cracks and fissures develop. No matter how hard two people try, they are going to rub up against each other, and develop ways to dance around that for the good of the marriage. That gave me something to work with.
I proposed that she make a deal with her husband. Every time she said or did something he considered a punishable offense, he would write it down on a list. He would never share this list with her. She would pass a sealed envelope from him on to me, and I would then select the transgressions that I felt merited punishment. I would not allow her to have the option of arguing against them.
This caught her by surprise. It was the last thing she was expecting. But with my encouragement, she agreed to ask him. I suspect it didn't take much convincing. He probably saw the benefits to this right away, since I got a message to set up a "play-date" the very next day.
I showed up to her house the next week. She wanted to do it there, because that's where she felt comfortable. That was fine by me. We had a four-hour window where her husband knew not to be there. On the appointed day, she opened the door and welcomed me in. Per my instructions, she wore her usual casual jeans and blouse. As much as I love fetish-wear, I felt this would fit our scene better.
Once she closed the door, she handed me the sealed envelope. I opened it up in front of her, and started reading through it. It made for quite some reading. In just the space of less than a week, her husband had jotted down 22 "violations." That's quite a lot, in my estimation. She had a very catty tongue around him, at least as far as he was concerned. That's where most of them came from.