Bondage Toy

So my name is Peter. I'm 30 years old, I'm in reasonably good shape, I've just lost a load of weight and toned up quite a bit in recent months. I'm in a long term open bi sexual relationship and very happily so. Something which only a few people know about me is that I'm bi sexual. As most people just see me with my girlfriend and figure that I'm completely straight.

I'm extremely kinky and love exploring my limits. With women I'm very dominant. However since I was young I experimented with my submissive side with men.

I've never fully been fulfilled by my desires with men though. For a combination of different reasons. Id create a post on grinder, looking for someone to completely fuck my throat, or for someone to tie me up etc id get a bunch of replies however when I actually come to meet these people they often fall short, over playing their hand pretending to be more experienced than they are, or not dominant enough and sometimes their cock just looked so much bigger in their photos.

I've had a few black guys absolutely rock my world in a local club, but I never quite got my world rocked in legit proper bondage by someone who knows what they are doing.

I wanna feel used, like a toy or an object. I want my mind to drift off helpless and fully submitted to whatever happens next.

I'm 30, I'm no longer a young pup that's in his 20's. So I don't experiment too often anymore. I more often fantasize about what could happen and what I want to happen by reading stories and experiences other people have had.

When I was around 26 I met this guy in Belgium, a proper dominant who was experienced. I was so excited to meet him, he sent me photos of his previous subs who he tied up, he sent me photos of his massive dick. He was the full package, however when I arrived at his place, my excitement got the best of me, and so before it even began it was over, I came without even being touched. And sadly that was the end of that experience. Not even a bit of rope touched my body. This was the only time that happened to me, never happened before this occasion and hasn't happened since. It was a huge loss, and I've been chasing an opportunity like this ever since.

Of course I've met people since, knowing they wouldn't live up to this person's skill level, I still have urges. I'm only human.

A little over a month ago, I ordered a dog collar off AliExpress. A shock collar, I figured well if at very least someone can't tie me up properly they can certainly intimate me into following their commands. So I began with revamping my grindr account, laying out exactly what I want. And what kind of person I'm looking for.

And behold someone who actually ticked all the boxes, someone who might actually even be more experienced than my one night Belgian man.

So over the last few weeks myself and this guy have been discussing our likes, desires and interests. Sharing experiences.

He's able to do plenty of rope work, he's got a large cock is into heavy fucking. He's genuinely kinky and not someone who has just bought themselves a beginner kink set with the label on the box saying 50 shades of gray and then calling themselves a dominant..

I want the full red room experience not the beginner stuff, or amateur treatment that most people give out.

So what do I actually want?

I want my throat fucked full force, I wanna be held down choking on cock with no escape and with the only way to earn the right to take a second break to breath is by gagging on cock. I want to be tied up head to toe with no escape and fucked for what could be considered a very very long time. I wanna be edged beyond belief a forced to submit into begging to cum and after doing so, tortured by post orgasm continuous touch. I wanna earn a load of cum down my throat, deep down my throat that it shoots past my tonsils.. I wanna use this new collar that I bought, this new shock collar. I wanna be forced to behave and follow exactly what I'm told or face the consequences.

Between myself and him we came up with a list of things in which I would be shocked. I'm actually very proud of the list.

Trying to touch or remove the collar in anyway,

Talking without permission,

Cumming without permission,

Not addressing him by the correct title sir.

Not swallowing sirs cum

By trying to pull away for air when being throat fucked before gagging.

Oh yes I'm setting myself up with no alternative but to obey.

I've already adapted the collar so it can't be removed regardless, it now requires a key to a lock. Once it's on its not coming off until sir is tired of me, and is fulfilled his needs by being a good little toy for him.

So here is how this is going to begin. I'll drive to his house, I'll wear a basic tracksuit and t-shirt, something easy to come off, I'll be wearing the collar already. I'll knock on his door, enter the hallway. I will hand him the remote, and kneel down. My shirt will be removed and my hands bound behind my back. A leash will be attached to the collar and a blindfold placed over my eyes.

When I hand sir this remote, I'll no longer be Peter, I'll be sir's toy. No escape, no turning back. His property till he is finished with me.

I'm a week away from meeting sir for the first time and I actually get to do this. Wish me luck.