As I reflect back on many years of sessions with professional dominatrices, trying to scratch a specific itch that could never quite be reached, I realize I've experienced some wild and incredible things. From profound pleasure to extraordinary danger, and everything in between, I've seen a lot. I'm starting a process of writing these experiences into stories so that others could learn from my mistakes, and maybe even experience some vicarious enjoyment. These stories are based on real experiences, but names, locations, and some details have been changed so that no individuals can be identified. I have not chapterized these stories as they are not necessarily intended to be serial.
A summer vacation one year in my late 20s took me to several cities in Europe, including Amsterdam. I spent much of my time in Amsterdam walking from attraction to attraction, and on my first evening there, I ended up in the red light district. It was fascinating to stroll through an area where it's completely acceptable to gawk at the beautiful women standing in the tall, red-backlit windows. The idea of legal, casual sex with the woman of my choosing was somewhat tempting, but not quite enough to part with precious and dwindling Euros.
As I reached one of the edges of the district, I came upon a red-lit window that had a small sign that read simply "BDSM." I stopped, transfixed. I had not expected to partake in my growing hobby while traveling, and certainly not here. But was this an opportunity staring me right in the face, without all the baggage of emailing, calling, and scheduling?
Other than the sign, the window was empty, which I had learned meant that the occupant was "occupied." I stood for a minute or two, wondering if the window owner might come back, but nothing happened, and I eventually left. But the thought of that little "BDSM" sign tormented me through the next day, and in the late afternoon I eventually made my way back to the same spot.
Sure enough, the "BDSM" sign was still in the window, and an elegant, older woman sat completely still in a chair in the center of the little chamber, like a statue. I stopped, and made eye contact with her. Definitely older than me, maybe late 40s or early 50s, she was skinny with some faint, dark hollow marks in her cheeks that made her look quite serious, even severe. She was dressed in black lingerie that wouldn't be unusual for any window in the district, but it had just a slight dominatrix vibe without being overt. Her blond hair was tied back in a tight ponytail.
As I stood there looking in the window, with the dominatrix looking casually back at me, a group of guys walked by, and one of them stopped to look first at her, then me. "Really?" he said, shaking his head, then continued walking. More than anything else, for some reason, that dude's comment broke my hesitation and I took a step up to her window.
She raised her eyebrows in question, and I nodded. She disappeared from view briefly, and a small door opened in the wall next to the red light window. She beckoned me to come inside, and I followed her up a dimly lit staircase that turned sharply into what looked like a one-room loft. I took in the room quickly, with its black walls and severe LED lighting. There was what looked like a bed in the middle of the room, with a leather pad on top and full-length cage underneath it. There was a man-sized "X" made out of black wood against one wall, and many bdsm toys and tools hanging from from hooks on the opposite wall.
The tall dominatrix watched me take in the room calmly, then gestured to a pair of metal chairs adjacent to the stairway, and said firmly, "sit." We sat and regarded each other. Now that I was closer to her, I noticed her lingerie was mostly matte blac, leather. "So," she said in heavily accented English, "what brings you here?" "Well, I'm on vacation," I started but she immediately looked annoyed. "Of course you are," she scolded, "but what brings you
here
, to me?"
"Oh," I said, feeling pretty dumb. "Well, I saw your BDSM sign, and I'm into being tied up."
"Ah, I see. Okay, my name is Victoria but you should call me Mistress." She said, now looking more patient. "Of course I will tie you up, and what then would you say should happen?"
"Well, I'm mostly into bondage," I confessed. "I'd really like to be tied up in different ways, or different positions maybe."