I've got anger issues when it comes to Black women, I told Dr. Nadia Osman as we sat in her office in the City of Toronto, Ontario. The comfortable surroundings did nothing to alleviate my mood. Last week I got into a heap of trouble. My Jamaican ex-girlfriend Monica Thompson took out a restraining order against me, all because I threatened to smack her ass a few times. I didn't like seeing her flirt with guys, especially White guys, right in front of me when we were out together. I swear to you that I never put my hands on the bitch. I just told her that shit to scare her straight, you know? I didn't actually plan on doing it but the bitch got on my last damn nerve. I went by her place to apologize, and next thing I know the cops showed up. Ain't that a blip?
Women are freaking insane and they wield way too much power in this society. Seriously. The judge, the honorable Evelyn Rancher, a plump White bitch, gave me two options, court-ordered anger management sessions or two months in prison. Guess which one I took? I'm a year away from graduating from Ryerson University with my civil engineering degree. I'm not throwing my life away over some dumb Jamaican bitch. So I decided to give this therapy shit a try. My name is Malik Hussein and I'm a twenty-two-year-old Somali-Canadian man living in Toronto. Welcome to my life.
When I first met Dr. Nadia Osman, I wasn't sure what to think. I mean, when they told me my court-appointed shrink was a Black Muslim woman, I wasn't sure what to expect. A thirty-two-year-old gorgeous Black woman in a stylish business suit wasn't my first thought, that's for sure. I wasn't sure about this therapy business but the good doctor put me at ease. I'm only here to help you, she said. I've never been the type to open up to females, because a man who blabs all his private shit to a female is the weakest link in my book. Women can't be trusted, man. You show your vulnerable side and they'll exploit it. You've got to stay strong and keep it moving, my mama taught me that.
Oh, shit. See what I told you about my not liking this therapy business? I shot the good doctor a look. Continue please, Dr. Nadia Osman said, nodding gently. Got me talking about my mama again. I guess when it rains it frigging pours, eh? I was born in the City of Brampton, Ontario, to a Somali immigrant family. My parents, Ali and Khadija Hussein moved to Ontario, Canada, from the City of Mogadishu, Somalia, shortly before I was born. I have an older brother named Ahmed and a younger sister, Dalia. My sister lives in the City of Ottawa, Ontario, with her Yemeni husband Jabir Fatimid. I wasn't thrilled that my sister married an Arab dude but Jabir is alright. A lot of Arabs are racists toward us Black folks, though Arab men's lust for Black women is well-known. Anyhow, I grew up in a typical Somali family. Dad was a security guard and mom worked as a nurse. My older brother Ahmed joined the Canadian military. He's a corporal now, working at a base in Kandahar, somewhere in Afghanistan.
My family had its ups and downs, like any other family, until my parents got divorced. My mother left us, left the religion of Islam and married some Italian dude named Gino whom she met at work. They ran off together and haven't been seen since. That was ten years ago. My siblings and I were raised by my paternal aunt Samira and my father. Got much love for my pops, a good Black man who did everything he could for his family. My so-called mother? Not so much. As far as I'm concerned, she's dead to me. A Black woman who abandons her family to shack up with a White man. That's a damn shame.
Now, if it were the other way around, my father would have been blamed till kingdom come. I can just imagine sisters far and wide shaking their heads and rolling their necks at the very notion of it. I mean, Black men are thought to be the ultimate abandoners and betrayers, always leaving Black women to chase women of other races, never taking care of their responsibilities and families. Thus go the popular stereotypes and misconceptions, and honestly, that makes me mad. Plenty of Black women abandon their families and we never hear about it. If that's not gender bias then I don't know what is!
I was still fuming, years later, as I painfully recollected and regurgitated this not-so-fun family facts to the good Dr. Nadia Osman in her downtown office. I am sorry for this, she said, a surprising empathy in her voice. Man, I wasn't feeling that at all. Don't need your pity lady, I said, shrugging. You've been through a lot, Dr. Nadia continued, looking right at me. I stared at her, wondering what her game was. One day you will learn to open your heart to love again, the doctor said confidently. I laughed at that. Not looking for love doc, I said, then I got up and walked out of the office without so much a goodbye. My time was up anyway. I went back to campus to work on some assignments. My way of getting all the emotional shit out of my head.
The next day, I sat in the Ryerson University campus library, working at a computer. I was in my favorite corner, with basically nobody around me. Cool, just the way I like it. With nobody around me I could do whatever the fuck I wanted. I completed my assignments and then relaxed a bit. I checked my Facebook and Twitter, took a few Selfie shots and posted them, and then went to YouTube to listen to music. I'm a big fan of Linkin Park. After listening to music for about an hour I was bored as hell, so I ended up doing what most guys ( and a few women ) do on the web. I looked at some porn.
I first went to Mad Black Sex, one of my favorite sites, and later I checked out Real Black Anal. I love watching videos featuring Black women with big butts getting fucked in the ass by well-endowed brothers. My favorite porn stars are Janet Jacme, Cherokee D'Ass, Ayana Angel, Beauty Dior, Devin Weed, Mr. Marcus, Brian Pumper and Vida Valentine. No lie, those videos got me real hard, especially a scene featuring the chocolate MILF known as Cherokee D'Ass getting butt-fucked by Brian Pumper in a steamy naughty teacher/eager student scenario. Yeah, but I was still in the mood for something else. So I went to Google and typed the words "Black woman strap-on Black man". Surprisingly, lots of hits came up. I checked out a steamy video on XHamster which simply got me hot.