I have been sitting very still for the past two hours. The music is very soothing; He has put on my favorite compact disc, of Chopin nocturnes. It helps me to focus, to remain still. I have passed the point of pleasure and irritation.
This is His test, to prove to myself how well I obey Him, without bonds. This time, I am not tied, nor did He touch me in any way. He gave me the instructions, and I followed them, willingly.
I was to undress completely. I did so, standing naked in the sunny room. All the draperies were open, even the sheer coverings, and the windows as well. The room is chilly in the early morning, but the sun should soon warm the room. My nipples are hard pebbles because of the cold.
I was to then insert the anal plug. It was his choice, not the thickest, but one of the longest. I did so. It stung, as I was doing this cold, with no preparation. He was so matter of fact; not one hint of eroticism crept into His instructions. I was then to push in the dildo; also not the thickest, but long and stiff.
It hurt, because I wasn't prepared. But I followed instructions.
Then I was to sit on the hard chair, still, until He called me and told me to rise.
I heard Him go into his office, and start working. I sat on the chair, feeling the intrusions. They were irritating, then I got used to them and they began to feel pleasurable. Then they were irritating again. Finally, I just feel them. They are there, not stretching me in any way, but intrusive, stiff, alien.
"This is how it is supposed to be," He told me. "Anything in your body that I do not put there is alien. You must recognize it as such." I do, I want to tell Him. I know now. Nothing will go into my body but what You put there. I have been enjoined to silence, however, and must wait for Him to release me.
Before, He tied me to the chair. He tied me in such a way that I was fully exposed, my most private areas displayed for anyone to see. They could see the toys, as well. I remember Him talking to me as the gardeners trimmed the roses outside the room; He told me about what I would feel, what He was doing to me, and I could see the expression on the gardeners' faces as they looked into the room, as they stared. They made comments about me, and I burned with humiliation. He let them in the room, so they could see me more closely, but He didn't let them touch me. He let them watch as he touched me, gave me an orgasm. I writhed in front of them, my private areas wet and scented with sex, trapped by my bonds and my love.
After they left, he positioned me in front of the window so that the cool air blew on my genitals. The breeze made me come again.
Today I sit, my arms hooked back behind me, over the back of the chair, so my breasts thrust forth and my back arches. I look out the window at the walkway to the front door, past that to the sidewalk. People walk back and forth. I know they have to be close to see within, but I hope no one comes up the front walk. They will look in and see me, my knees apart, a dildo in my vagina and my naked breasts thrust forward, unmoving and silent.
His telephone call is finished, and He comes to the living room. He stands before me, and seems pleased. "You have learned well," He tells me, taking my left nipple in his long fingers and twisting it. He applies more pressure, and the pain starts. Tears start to my eyes, but I hold his gaze.
"You are going to have a visitor," He says, smiling and twisting my right nipple as well. By now, the pain has communicated itself into my very confused brain, and it tells me that I am aroused. I am; the wetness, the musky aroma, are becoming pronounced. "You will continue to sit in the chair throughout the visit," He tells me. "You will allow the visitor to do anything with you he or she likes. I will be here, as well," His voice becomes stern. "You will be punished severely for protesting."
I nod, still silent. He smiles at me, and, bending, kisses each nipple. His tenderness overwhelms me, but I do not say anything. I just smile at Him, and bow my head. He pleases me.
He leaves the room, briefly, and I hold my position. Now that I am aroused, it becomes very hard. I want to wriggle, to agitate the two intruders, to touch my clitoris, to feel the moisture with my fingers.
Instead, I stay still, listening to the music. It begins to soothe me again, and I am almost dreaming when I hear a knock at the door. I look up, and am horror-stricken. It is Elaine Hardt, the very proper woman who lives up the street. She was going to see me at some point about donations for the silent auction at church, and it must have been today . . . she is dressed for a meeting, flowered dress, hat and gloves, and I am here, naked, with intruding toys and a very wet sex.
I am scarlet when He opens the door, speaks with her, and then motions for her to come in. She stops short when she sees me.