April 28th -- June 4th
Nearly a year had passed now since Rob and Bernie's journey exploring a BDSM relationship had begun. They were having an amazing time playing out their fantasies with toys, spanking and bondage equipment. The dynamic between Rob and Bernie was continuing to evolve rapidly in an organic and interesting direction. It seemed that, as the months passed and they went deeper into their dominant and submissive roles, both Bernie and Rob's boundaries and levels of comfort were getting wider and wider. With this widening of boundaries came increasingly deeper levels of intimacy and closeness between the two men. Bernie had been spending quite a lot of his time thinking and reflecting on their BDSM experiences and he was attempting to open his mind to new areas of exploration, areas of taboo that neither of them had considered as a possibility.
One evening whilst they were sat watching a nature documentary about chimpanzees, he remembered a poem that Rob had written at the beginning of the year. "Oh my God, that's it" he cried. Bernie muted the television and Rob turned and looked at him, startled.
"What's up?"
Bernie moved closer, sitting himself next to Rob. "I just had an idea. Remember your poem about pre-human ancestors and how kinky sex began?"
"You mean reclaiming the hairy heart?" Rob was blushing. After Christmas he had written Bernie a poem to express some of his feelings about their Christmas day session.
"Yeah. The documentary guy on the telly, talking about chimp hierarchies reminded me of your poem, and it's given me an idea for something totally new we could try. Something that I think has the potential to bring us even closer and make our sex even hotter". Rob looked at Bernie's face, which shone with enthusiasm, excitement and arousal, and his own body responded in kind. He trembled, feeling the familiar fear and excitement in knowing that Bernie was thinking of a new way to push his submission and degradation to new depths.
The experience at Christmas was the first time that Bernie had created a scene of his own that had expressed his own desires and dominance fully and directly. Rob had mostly led the way and set the scenes they played out and he had told Bernie after Christmas that he felt more in control this way. Now here was Bernie directly seeking to take control of what he wanted from him. Rob felt his fear grow and he took his boyfriend's hand, needing to calm himself.
"Your poem reminded me of how subjects used to behave towards feudal lords or kings". Bernie continued. "In Your poem, it sounds like you're basically say that when you're submitting to me is that you lose yourself in me. Am I right?"
Rob thought for a moment. "Yeah, I feel smaller and smaller, and I feel myself get lost in worshipping you. I get lost in love. It's amazing." There was a gentle smile on his face.
Bernie nodded. "Right. I'm thinking we could do a scene where you make a vow to serve me as your lord and master. We could make it like a commendation ritual, where serfs used to swear loyalty to Medieval lords. It's strong stuff but hear me out". Bernie explained his idea as Rob's eyes grew wide and the expression on his face was one of fear and consternation, but also, increasing interest.
"I need to think about this Bernie. It's new territory, I've never been into that kind of kink but, I must admit your idea is really turning me on. It's also pretty scary for me and I don't want to get hurt, or for you to get hurt either. I'm going to need some time to process my feelings about this."
Bernie squeezed Rob's hand. "Darling, I know this one is extreme territory for our relationship and we both need to be absolutely clear in our boundaries and intentions with this one. It scares me too. But I also think the potential for intimacy is huge. I'm also aware this is coming from me, it's all my idea and if it's too much, we won't do it. I don't want to do it if it's too much for you or too much for me. Right now, it's just an idea, a fantasy."