The truth is, I really had no idea what I was getting into. When I first met Robert, I was waiting tables at the local diner, Panquakes. I am by nature an exceptionally meek woman, 26 years old, slim but not starvation-slender, with a hovering aura of pale grey. My hair is average-colored brown and it hangs down to an average length on my back. When I met Robert, I was living in this world just like a lost cat or fading ghost.
That fateful Wednesday, I was waiting on Robert (oh, the irony of hindsight!). He ordered-- I still remember-- a ham sandwich with extra mayo and a beer, and then flashed me one of those million dollar smiles. You know, the kind worn by TV actors, gold-plated and warm to the touch.
"What are you doing this Saturday, sweetheart?" He asked, smooth as silk. I was so shocked and flattered, I could barely bring myself to speak. I had
never, ever
been asked out on the job. When I finally mustered the will to flex my larynx, the words were too fast and ran over each other,
"I'm working morning-- in the-- but only 'til 4-- then-- I don't have-- I'm free."
You see, Robert isn't
the
most handsome, but he is built like a real man, with a square chin, and girth between the shoulders. His hair was ash colored and graying strategically at the sideburns. Even his small paunch titillated my narrow female bones.
"Come over to my place, beautiful. I just live a few blocks from here. We'll eat dinner. It'll be nice."
"Ah-ah-ok. Ok."
I never had a chance. Saying no is something I've never been too good at...
Robert left and I already started daydreaming about the ensuing romance we would have-- tender kisses, movie nights, and heaps of "huns" and "darlings" on each other's lips. My palpable desperation transfigured itself into a pipe dream.
***
When I walked over to Robert's house for our first date, I was terribly nervous. I wanted so badly to make a good impression that I spent hours doing my hair and makeup and choosing the perfect outfit.
"Hey beautiful!" He exclaimed when he opened the door, gold-plaited smile flashing. "Everything's just about ready."
And it really was lovely. Robert had ordered take-out from an Italian restaurant, set the table, and even bought a nice bottle of wine. It seemed like all my dreams were coming true-- I could almost feel the ocean breeze on our future seaside strolls. When we parted, he kissed me respectfully on the mouth, and we agreed to meet in a few days.
This courting process went on for a few weeks, at a steady pace. On our third date we had very quiet sex. Robert laid me down on my back and thrust his impressive cock deep into my pussy. I shut my eyes tight and bit my lip, hoping that I wouldn't disappoint Robert. Just being an instrument of his pleasure was enough to send ripples of ecstasy up and down my body as he grunted and emptied his warm load into my pussy hole. He didn't even ask if I was on the pill, and I didn't dare bring up the issue... I felt so incredibly blessed to have found Robert, the only man who had taken the time to get know me in a long, long while. In fact, looking back, he probably sensed this about me, my desperation, and ensnared me knowing I was vulnerable prey.
* * *
I'll never forget how "it" started: the change, the shift, whatever you want to call it. We were in bed cuddling and kissing (this was probably our fourth or fifth week together), when he stopped crooning, shot me a serious look, and said,
"You want to make me happy, right? Don't I deserve a good loving woman??" A wave of devastation crashed over me.
"Why, I, of course! Have I been... not??"
"Well, I've sure been doing a lot for you these last couple weeks. It would be nice if you could show your appreciation for your man once in a while, in a proper way. Cook me dinner or... other things. A good woman that I can show to my friends, you know. A man needs to be treated well."
Tears sprung to my eyes-- I wanted so much for Robert to feel like the most appreciated man in the world. He was, in a sense, my hero, my God. Before Robert, I had no purpose, and now...
"Oh, Robert! I would do anything for you!
Anything
! You are the most important thing in my life."
He chuckled, "Anything, huh? Then get to sucking, bitch." The word bitch slapped me up side the face and I could feel my cheeks burning with embarrassment.
"Wh-what, Robert?"
"I said: get on your knees, unzip my pants and take my hard cock in your mouth and fucking suck. You're mine, right? All mine? Then worship my dick."
"Of course I'm yours! I-I'll do anything you want, to make you happy."