Kirsty sipped her morning tea as she watched Monika swing. The storm had finally chased them back to the house after dark last night, but even then she knew Bjorn was reluctant. She was reminded once more of a couple of teenagers sneaking in after curfew. They had stopped downstairs only long enough to raid the refrigerator.
Even at breakfast this morning, the usually jovial Bjorn had remained withdrawn and sullen. Only in her arms had he been the man she had come to love. Even then though that shadow remained. They had made love a couple more times once they made their way to her room. And it was making love, no kinky stuff at all. Well almost none, the man's kisses were lethal after all. Each time though, he had been almost paranoid about pulling out of her before he came. That still hurt, bothered her. Even if she had agreed to give it, him, time.
Of course, Sven had only made things worse with his equally sullen attitude over breakfast that morning. He had barely spoken three words the whole time, but he was constantly sneaking glances in her direction when he thought no one was looking. She was not certain what to make of that...or him for that matter. He had been the one that woken her, sent her to Bjorn, so why the attitude. Other than their 'fight.'
She smiled...fight. It was not like her actually. She tried to remember a single argument with Raj, but she could not. She frowned, was that because neither actually cared enough to disagree? She shook her head. What did it matter now? He had his wife and the baby she was expecting. And she had her...three husbands. She laughed aloud at the idea.
"What's so funny?" Mikael's baritone caressed her mind.
She turned and smiled up at him around the brim of the mug, "The idea of three husbands actually."
He nodded, but she noticed the cloud that passed over his face as he ignored her comment, "How is she doing?" He frowned as he ran his hand through his darker blonde hair, "I really do appreciate all you are doing with her...with us. She seems so much more...I don't know...relaxed. Thank you," he stammered.
Kirsty saw the tension written all over his face, his stance. Something was wrong, very wrong. If it had been Bjorn, she would have simply asked. But though she and Mikael had a truce, she still was not confident talking with him except when it came to his daughter. So she stuck to that and hoped he would reveal whatever was bothering him in time.
"She truly is a wonderful little girl, Mikael. All of you have done so well with her. I am sure that you would have found some way to reach her even if I had not come," she began.
He shook his head, "No, we could never have done this...not as quickly, not like you have. I just wish..." he trailed off. Kirsty noticed him clenching and unclenching his hands at his side, "Odin be damned Sven, why now?"
Kirsty frowned at him, "What do you mean, why now? What has Sven got to do with anything?"
Mikael turned to her, his face dark and sullen. "Sven insists on going back to sea."
Panic rose inside of her. Why she was not completely certain? Was it that this place was still so new, that she could not imagine it without them? Of course, she would miss Bjorn and Mikael. But maybe it was Petrine's stories that niggled most at her mind. Lars. Whatever it was, she was not going to over-react. 'Never let them see you cry.' "Why? When?"
Mikael sighed heavily, "He wanted to leave today, but Bjorn and I insisted we wait until tomorrow morgan at least. As for why? Do you think the great, high and mighty captain shares that with us?"
The vitriol dripped from each of his words. For the first time, she thought about what it must truly be like for them, for Mikael and Bjorn. It was not like they got to choose their career, they were born to it. What's more the very order in which they had been born placed Sven over them. Not skill or merit, though she did not doubt that he had those. But so too did both of his brothers. It seemed intensely unfair somehow.
"We'll just see about that," she said as she placed her hands on her hips and turned to storm through the woods for another confrontation with the man.
Mikael shook his head and reached for her. His hand wrapped about her upper arm and brushed innocently against her breast. The way her body flamed to life though was anything but. She sucked in a deep breath and bit back a low moan that escaped as a whisper anyway.
"Sorry," he mumbled as he cast his eyes towards the ground. That drew her own eyes downward as she noticed the thickening in the front of his jeans. She smiled at the knowledge that truce or no, she could still have some effect on her bad boy. His voice too was husky as he asked, "Where are you going? What do you think you can do?"
"I am going to give him a piece of my mind, that is what I am going to do. Who does he think he is to kidnap me and then just dump my ass here all alone after less than a week? I barely know this place. And while I like your mother and father, even she admits that big bed is lonely. Hell, no, what is the man thinking?" she raged uncharacteristically.
Mikael inhaled deeply, "We already pointed all that out to him, Kirsty. He said that this was our life and you had better get used to it."
"He said what?" she fumed until she feared that she looked cartoonish with wisps of smoke curling out her ears. "Take over here. I have a few things to say to Mister Cool."
Mikael shook his head and tightened his grip on her arm, "Leave it for now, please. Bjorn and I will ask my father to try speaking to him after dinner tonight. I promise."
She jerked her arm away, "No, enough is enough. He can't do this. If Ægir's Captive is going back to sea, I will be on it. If being abandoned like this before I even know my way around is how it is going to be, you can take me back now." Even as she said the words, her throat constricted, tightening until she would have sworn she felt Bjorn's hand on her throat.
But it was the dark look on Mikael's face that kept her frozen to the spot as much as his painfully tight grip, "No, no, we will not. You fucking belong here. You are ours. And if I have to fucking tie your ass to that bed again, you are not going anywhere. I have lo..."
Mikael turned his head away as he released her, "What about her? What about my daughter? She is coming to care for you already."
She heard the tightness in his voice and though he did the best to keep his back to her she thought perhaps his eyes glistened a bit brighter in the morning sun. 'Yes, but do you?' she wondered. The fact that his friend façade had cracked enough to release her 'bad boy' if only momentarily was a good sign...she thought.
"I have to try," she whispered as she turned and walked towards the woods that lead to the dock and the boat. This latest turn of events weighed heavily upon her. Was this Sven's way of punishing her for their argument yesterday?
And if it was, what then? She might have boasted to Mikael that they could take her home, but his threat of tying her to the bed was far less binding than the tightness she felt in her chest at the thought of it. The thought of leaving this place...leaving them. She was not even certain that she could.
***
Sven watched her rage out of the woods. He did not need to guess what was on her mind. The only question was which of his brothers was he beating to a pulp for telling her before he could. He shook his head. He knew how this must look to them, but the truth was that they all could use a bit of breathing space.
Her included. For the past week, she had been passed from brother to brother like a bone among a pack of wild dogs. She needed time to think, time alone to learn this place, their way of life. And if his mother insisted upon sharing family secrets, she could educate the woman on just how much of the time she would have on her own.
At least until she had other things to occupy her mind. Things like a baby. He inhaled as she stormed up the deck towards him. He plastered a smile in place. Let her begin this one, "God morgan."
"God? There is nothing good about it. What do you mean you are going back to sea?"
He loved the way her ears matched her hair then. He focused on that as he began, "We are fishermen. That means we fish. Fish are found in the sea. Thus we must go to sea...often."
"I get that, but why now? Why so fucking soon after dumping me here?"
It was the same question, he had been asking himself all morning. Yes, they needed the money. Their little bride expedition had not been cheap either in time or the money they invested in those false documents.
Then too a few days at sea might give him and his brothers an opportunity away from her to get some things straight...one way or another. He could certainly use the chance to release some of this tension by smashing his baby brother's pretty face to pieces.
But the honest truth was that he simply needed to get away. Away from her for a few days. Some time to think. To clear his head and come up with a plan. Their argument yesterday had shaken him. To begin with, he was not used to arguing with women. Period. His lovers never dared such things. Oh, they might try whining or cajoling but even then he simply moved on to the next one.