Are We Who We Thin We Are?

Sorry, for those that enjoyed the first part and wanted more, that this has been so desperately long in coming. Writing isn't my first talent and getting it all out and down is a painfully laborious undertaking for me. I hope you enjoy this episode. Fair warning, it gets intense and Jake pushes Sarah along fairly quickly. This was done on purpose and will feed the following parts, so if you want to comment about it, just bear this in mind. I already know, and I already don't care.

That said, I love feedback so please give it generously and constructively and not anonymously if possible. I would love for other authors on here to offer their feedback and ideas as well. I have a vague plan for coming parts and an overall vision but I am here to learn and a lot of you writers are bloody amazing.

Enjoy...

Jake

After our wake-up sex Sarah scurried off to the bathroom, I suspect to take a little alone time to reflect as well as get cleaned up. I stretched back on the bed, reflecting myself on what had happened in the last 24 hours. It had been a lot, that was for sure and assuming Sarah didn't safe word I planned for it to be a lot more as well. Today, all being well I was going to fuck Sarah's arse. Martin and Anthea were going to be out for most of the morning and afternoon at some event or other that we were dropping them off at and picking them up from, giving us the perfect opportunity to explore a few things.

With this in mind I pulled up my backpack onto the bed to have a look at what I might like to play with today. Protruding out of the collection of filth in there sitting large and proud was the cordless Hitachi wand that I was dying to try out. I pulled it out and turned it on, feeling the huge vibrations all down my arm. I smiled! Sarah was going to be in so much trouble...

Sarah sidled back into my room about 20 minutes later, freshly scrubbed and showered, wrapped in a terrycloth robe and looking a bit shy and awkward. She walked over and knelt at the side of the bed with her hands behind her back, looking at the floor.

"What are you doing down there, gorgeous?," I asked

Blushing a lovely rich crimson from her forehead to the top of her chest she quietly replied "Umm, I thought this was how submissives were meant to be," She flushed even more, "Did I do it wrong? I am so sorry, I don't really know what I am doing?"

Wow! I was touched and elated and nervous. This was really something, but not a something I was expecting or wanting really. "Come up here S. You don't need to do that unless we are playing." I patted the bed beside me, "We should talk about yesterday and this morning and I'd like to do that with Sarah, my strong and beautiful girlfriend not my dirty little bad girl," I laughed.

I sat up back against the headboard and spread my legs wide and put out my arms, inviting her to sit in front of me with her back snuggled against my chest, one of our favourite positions for relaxing and chatting. She stood up and stepped onto the bed on her knees and a single, beautifully fluid motion, spun around and leaned back into me. "Can I go first please?," she asked.

"Of course," I whispered into her ear as I snaked my arms around her chest to hold her in close, "Tell me everything that is on your mind."

"Last night... Yesterday was something... I just never thought that I could be like that. Do those things or feel those things," Sarah said quietly as she linked her fingers into mine pulling my arms tighter around her. "The teasing, the pub and then tying me up like you did and doing those things to me.... I.... It is hard to describe."

"Did you enjoy it though?," I asked. "Did the way you felt feel good, or right? Or was it a feeling you didn't like? This is important Sarah because it will define what we are going forward, if there is a forward for us." I almost held my breath waiting for her answer. I thought I knew what it was going to be but the stakes here were high. I did love Sarah but I didn't want to go back to life as we knew it previously.

"Did I enjoy it. God Jake! I loved it, hated it, feared it and wanted more of it all at once. The things you made my body do were unreal and amazing and incredibly embarrassing but that is nothing compared to what you did to my head." Sarah took a long shuddering breath before continuing, "I want more but at the same time I don't.... I don't really know what more I want and I don't know how to ask for it."

She paused for a few moments, and I leaned in to gently kiss the back of her neck. "Go on." I urged kissing and nibbling around her neck and shoulders.

Sarah's breath stuttered in and out and she squirmed a little as she almost whispered, "I can't do it. I don't know how to!"

My heart sank and I all but froze behind her as she squeezed my fingers tight and she continued "No, that's not what I mean" she quickly clarified, obviously sensing my reaction. "I mean... God I am hopeless. I want..." she stopped again and took a deep breath the quickly burst out "I don't want a choice. I want you to make the decision about this and tell me what you want me to do, to be and I'll do it. At least I will try my hardest."

My mind caught fire and a surge of adrenaline shot through my body. In that one little outburst she lit me up like I have never experienced and completely caught me off guard. I couldn't form words for a minute so I just squeezed her tight and nuzzled my face into her neck.

As I regained control of my thoughts, my mind went into overdrive and I quickly realised that I needed time to process what I 'wanted her to be'. In the meantime though I decided I had more immediate thoughts on what I wanted Sarah 'to do', "Open your robe and spread your legs over the top of mine so your feet or outside my legs. Then I want you to close your eyes and play with your body. I want you to sit here, like this and masturbate while we talk."

This was another one of those big steps for Sarah. Before we started this journey she had never touched herself in front of me. By all accounts she hardly touched herself at all. So with nothing more than a quiet whimper she slipped her fingers from mine and pulled out the belt on her silky robe and pulled it wide revealing her naked, freshly washed body.

I adjusted my position slightly, so I sat up a little straighter to allow me to look down over her shoulder. Her chest rose and fell quickly, those beautiful nipples already puffed up, erect and begging to be played with. She shifted a little and lifted her legs spreading them and hooked her heals over the outside of my calves.

I couldn't really see her pussy from this position but that was fine. However the devil in me wasn't quite done and so I eased my legs as far apart as I could manage, cursing that I didn't do yoga and Pilates with Sarah more often. It was enough though and I heard a quiet embarrassed gasp. "Play with your nipples with one hand and your pussy with the other. I want you to work yourself right to the edge while I talk to you and tell you my thoughts. If you cum, you will be punished. You are already in trouble for your orgasm this morning so don't make things worse. Equally if I don't think you are trying hard enough then you will be punished for failing to follow directions." I paused for a moment "Do you understand?"

She didn't answer for a few moments taking a deep breath that sounded a lot like it contained a quiet moan, "Yes, sir. I understand." Another long breath and then "I'll do by best to be your good girl... and your bad girl." Sarah was silent then and I could now hear the wet sounds coming from where her fingers with playing between her legs. I smiled.

"From now on, if I tell you to wear or not wear something whether it is clothing, underwear or something under your underwear, you will wear it with no complaint." I had decided to just go for it and see how far I could push Sarah's limits. "Do you agree to this?"

"Yes Sir!" She answered quickly, her voice starting to sound a little strained.

"Your pleasure belongs to me now," I continued, "You don't orgasm without my permission and you don't play with yourself without my permission. Equally, if I tell you I want you to orgasm or to play with yourself in whatever manner I choose, you will do so without complaint. Do you agree to this?"

"Yes Sir!" Sarah answered in a little gasp.

"Your body and mind are for my pleasure and enjoyment. I will tease and torment both. I will tie you up or restrain you and do whatever I want with you. I will expect you do to things that you might find embarrassing or difficult, like it did on the train this week. If I want to push my cock all the way down your throat I will and you will do your best to take it. I will finger you cunt, eat it and fuck it. I will use toys and other things to torment and fuck you with. The same goes for your gorgeous arse. Do you agree to this?"

"Oh God! Yes... Sir!" she moaned.

"Even if I want to fuck you with my whole hand or make you cum in a room full of people? Even if another person is looking at you and knowing that you are having an orgasm right in front of them. Would you do that for me?" I was pushing now but we seemed to be on a role.

"Oh!" Sarah gasped hard, the wet squelchy noise coming from between her legs getting louder and wetter. "I don't know, maybe... Uh! Yes. Sir! Yes I will do that for you." I could feel her body starting to tense against me now, the skin round her neck starting the flush and get damp.

"Is this turning you on S? Does agreeing to be my dirty little plaything turn you on?" I whispered in her ear. "Tell me what you are thinking, what you want?"

"Oh God! Yes it's turning... me... on... I want to cum. I am so close it is hard to hold it back. Please may I cum?" Her speech was broken and jittery now her body starting to tremble.

"No! You do not have permission but you may not stop, not yet. I have two more questions for you. Last night when I covered your mouth and stopped you breathing, you came like a firework had gone off inside you. Did you like having your breath taken away? Do you agree to me doing this again?" I was rock hard now and it was a struggle to regulate my voice. I wasn't sure why I had decided to ask this, it just came back to me as Sarah shook against me, how hard she came when I smothered her.

"Uuugh! Yes. I didn't... know what was happening... but when you...did... it.... My mind went blank I think. You can do anything to me, Sir! Ugh, Jake I am going to cum!"

"Stop!" I demanded, as I pulled her arms and hands away form her body. "Hold it in." Sarah's body was shaking, I could feel her pelvis jerking forward trying to find some friction in the air.

"Nooo! Fuck, please!" she begged.

"Put your hands behind you head and lock your fingers. Right now." I growled. She did so quickly. "Close your eyes. You do not have permission to cum and you do not have permission to move your hands. Do you understand? If you do then there will be consequences."

I didn't wait for an answer. With one hand I reached over and picked up the hitachi and with the other I pinched one of her puffy sensitive nipples hard for a second. I know what I did next was wildly unfair but I was excited to see the struggle. I pressed the wand firmly against her clit and as I turned it on I used my other hand to pinch her nose and cover her mouth and growled "Do not fucking cum!"

I might as well have told her to try and fly to the moon. It was like ten thousand volts was coursing through her body as she came hard almost before I had finished speaking. Her body bucked and jerked against me as I held my hand over her mouth and used the arm holding the wand to press her against me.

Sarah

I don't even think I heard the last thing Jake said. The second his hand closed over my nose and mouth and that damn vibrator started I was finished. It wasn't like my pussy exploded. It was like my whole body exploded. It felt much more vivid than last night, possibly because I was less desperate in the lead up and more focused on what was happening. Last night Jake had reduced me to a ball of helpless need and when he covered my mouth I was already lost.

Today I was more aware of what was happening, at least to begin with.

I felt like every nerve in my body was attached to my clit when he smothered me. The struggle to breath making every feeling so much more intense and desperate. I could feel my pussy spasming. I think even my bum was, I had no control. The orgasm was huge and then I couldn't seem to come down from it fast enough. Fuck it was too intense and my clit was suddenly so sensitive. I needed air. I started struggling and moved my hands, briefly waving them as I debated between freeing my mouth or pulling the wand from my clit.

I went for the wand and Jake was good enough to pull it away as my hands grabbed it. I came down, the relief immediate. That done I shook my head and grabbed at his hand over my mouth realising now just now desperate my need for air had become.

As his hand moved away and I sucked in a huge lungful of sweet fresh air Jake push the wand hard against my pussy again and I came. There was no build up. No Warning. The combination of the air hitting my starved system, the power of the wand and the state of my pussy was like a perfect storm and I came. Immediate pressure and then immediate release as I let out a loud, very unladylike grunt.

Then the wand was gone and I was being pushed off Jake and dragged to the side of the bed. I was still twitching and spasming when Jake stepped behind me, pulled up my hips and in one long motion pushed his rock-hard cock balls deep into my sodden mess of a cunt.

He hammered me. That is the only word for it. Hammered! There was no finesse from him just raw need. I'd always refused to let anyone have sex with me doggy style before. I always felt it was dirty and degrading but this, this felt right. This felt like where I wanted to belong... and then I was moving again.

Jake grabbed my shoulders and pulled my body upright until his head was beside mine, his long thick cock still balls deep inside me. "Kneel up on the floor and reach behind you and hold your ankles." he rasped into my ear. Then he slipped out of me and stood back.

I kind of slithered off the bed backwards onto my knees and struggled around, still a bit dazed. Moving forward to create a little space a reached back to grab my ankles, quickly realising I would have to spread my knees a fair bit to allow me to reach.

My pose was therefore somewhat obscene, or erotic I guess depending on your taste. My chest was thrust forward, nipples pointing at the ceiling with my body tilted slightly backwards, my knees spread wide and my pussy clearly visible in all its soaking, dripping glory.

"Open!" was all Jake said as he stepped forward and pressed his cock, soaked in my frothy white pussy cream against my lips. I was a little afraid he might try and push it all the way into my throat like he suggested he would earlier but he didn't. I opened my mouth and he slipped it inside maybe two or three inches.

"Make me cum." He demanded. "Suck me and make me cum in your mouth. Don't swallow anything and don't you dare spit it out." Fuck! "I should be disgusted," I thought but I wasn't. The opposite in fact. I felt my pussy clench at his words.

In all my life I had never given a blow job kneeling down in front of a standing man. To me this was the ultimate in subservience. The ultimate surrender. A betrayal to all womankind. Letting a man ejaculate in my mouth and then holding it there, waiting to be told what to do, the ultimate degradation. Why then was it turning me on so damn much. What the hell was happening to me?

I don't know what made me do it but as I closed my lips around Jake's shaft I looked up at him and his eyes caught mine and locked on as I sucked his cock into my mouth, running my tongue around the sensitive back side of the big pink head and started to gently bob my head. I never took my eyes from Jake's as I tasted my own pussy on his cock, cleaning away my own juices.

It wasn't long before his hips started to jerk a little and he brought his hand up to the sides of my head. Again, a pang of fear shot through me as I imagined him thrusting deep into my throat but again he didn't. His hands gently cupped the sides of my face, almost caressing it as I continued to suck him and swirl my tongue around, teasing his head and poking at the small hole in the end.

His hands tightened slightly holding my head still as he grunted "I'm going to cum!" I took my queue and sucked harder and rasped my tongue along the underside of his cock as I felt it stiffen, swell and then explode in my mouth.

Not swallowing was difficult. His cum hit the back of my mouth with force and kept on coming, again and again. I know it is never actually all that much but when it is sharing space with a cock it feels like gallons of cum is filling your mouth.

Jake stepped back and slipped his cock from my mouth and I clamped it shut, desperate not to get into more trouble. With a fluid grace that never failed to amaze me (and turn me on a little) Jake folded himself to his knees in front of me, again looking me right in the eyes.

"Open you mouth and show me." He said. I did as I was asked, fighting to hold his rock steady gaze and not close my eyes in blushing embarrassment. "Good girl... Or should I say, 'Dirty Girl?'" he grinned.

He leaned into me then running a hand up the inside of my thigh and whispered, "You can swallow it when you cum for me." His finger slipped almost unnoticed into my swamp like cunt, but it didn't stay there for long as he slipped it out and reached further back pressing it firmly against my bum.

I jerked slightly alarmed by how easily that finger slipped inside my arse to the first or second knuckle. I must have soaked everything down there. Jake pumped it gently, easing it all the way inside me and was soon thrusting it is smoothly in and out from tip to third knuckle. Then he pressed his thumb hard against my clit and rubbed hard and fast with his finger jammed deep inside my butt and, like a good girl I came.

Jake

When Sarah's orgasm hit her she lurched forward, her body crunching down as her stomach muscles spasmed. Unfortunately for her when this happened her mouth opened and she spat my cum right back at me, hitting me square in the chest.

I sat back on my heels looking at her, waiting until she got herself together a little. God I loved this girl. I had loved her before we started this journey but going through this rapid metamorphosis had caught me completely off guard. I was caught up in the speed this was all evolving and had worried about moving too fast but looking at this wonderful woman in front of me now, curled up with her head on the floor gasping out the last strains of her orgasm; well, I wanted it all. I was fairly sure there would be no turning back now for either of us.

As her breathing steadied I reached down to cup the side of her face, gently lifting it back up and easing her upright. I leaned in and kissed her gently on the lips, slick with her saliva and probably my cum. "S, you have some cleaning up to do sweetheart. You spat my cum out all over my chest." I said as I gently directed her face downwards.

To her credit she didn't blink and took hold of my upper arms to steady herself and pressed her face against my chest, licking off my cum and her spit until I was clean.

I stood and pulled Sarah to her feet and led her back to the bed, wrapping her robe around her and easing back into the position we started in, snuggling with my back against the headboard and Sarah leaning back into me.

"I love you." I whispered into her ear, "I love you so much my beautiful dirty, sexy little goody two shoes."