Claire was a little bit drunk on the day she confessed to Tina that she had a fantasy. Had she been sober she would probably have been far too embarrassed to make any such admission and would never have said a word. But she wasn't sober and that's why Tina got to know about her most secret desire.
At the time they were both creeping rapidly up on their thirtieth birthdays and both were casualties of unsuccessful marriages. Because of that the two women had formed a friendship that had so far worked well for them. They didn't live in each others pockets because they both valued their freedom, but they had the kind of bond that meant each could always rely on the other. They went out together, they laughed together, and helped each other when needed, but both were happy to have their own space, their own lives, kept private. Each was - in Tina's words - convalescing from a bad attack of 'man-itis' and both were very wary of forming attachments. For that reason men and relationships were subjects that they tended to skate around, until the night that Claire made her confession. On that night the barrier had been broken down and they talked much more openly than ever before, each realising just how little they actually knew about the other.
That night they revealed to each other what they enjoyed in bed and what their partners had been like, and, more importantly, what they hoped to find for the future in that way. That led, almost inevitably, to discussing their preferences and fantasies. Her greatest fantasy, Claire admitted after Tina had confessed to enjoying being told what to do in the bedroom, was to be tied naked to a bed and placed at the mercy of a total stranger, someone she had never met before, who would then be allowed to do anything he wanted to her, absolutely anything. Tina had sat beside her with her chin on the floor in surprise, totally dumbfounded for once in her life.
'But why?' She asked. 'Wouldn't it be dangerous?'
'Yes, of course it would, that's why it can never happen, but the thought of it really turns me on.'
'How would it work?' Tina was fascinated by a strange desire that was not too far from her own submissive tendencies.
'Simple. I would be stripped naked, tied to a bed by my wrists and ankles and then left alone for a stranger to walk in and take advantage of me.'
'But wouldn't you worry about what he might do?' Tina objected.
'No, that's the point. He would be allowed to do anything he wanted, anything at all. Then I wouldn't know what to expect and he might do things I'd never normally allow, you know, and take me to places I've never been.'
'What limits would you put on what he could do?'
'None.' Claire couldn't get Tina to understand. 'No limits of any kind, apart from causing me serious harm of course. That's the whole idea, and anyway, I wouldn't be in a position to stop him, would I?'
'And what if your stranger was a woman, or a man who brought friends to help him, or both?'
'Then I'd get to experience a bisexual gang-bang wouldn't I?'
'You mean, you'd let a woman do things to you? I didn't think you were that way inclined.'
'I'm not. Absolutely I'm not. But I wouldn't be able to prevent it and so if I did happen to enjoy it, it would be guilt free.'
'My god, you really do mean anything.' Tina shook her head in disbelief. 'But you might get hurt too.'
'I might like that as well, to an extent.' Claire admitted. 'I had a boyfriend who spanked me at one time, and that turned me on.'
'You're full of surprises, aren't you?' Tina's eyebrows shot up. 'But I mean, you might get really hurt, I mean as in injured.'
'True, but it's only ever going to be a fantasy. In my head that wouldn't happen and I wouldn't receive more pain that I could enjoy.'
'I can see that, but I must admit that I don't understand the attraction of being in a helpless position in the first place, even just as a fantasy.'
'Embarrassment, humiliation and fear. And if I were sober tonight I think that's exactly what I'd be feeling by telling you about it.'
'Would you ever actually do it?'
She thought about it before answering. 'Yes, I would, but only if I knew I was guaranteed safe from harm.'
It was Tina's turn to sit for a while and look thoughtful. 'You mean it, don't you?'
She raised defiant eyes and stared at him, her heart beginning to race as she understood Tina's thoughts. 'Yes.'
'I know a man I could trust to do it with you, if you're really up for it?'
'Well, yes, but I don't know the guy.' Claire protested.
'Didn't you just say you wanted it to be a stranger? So what could be safer than someone I trust, but who is a stranger to you?'
'I suppose I did, but you've got to tell me a little bit about him. I mean, for one thing, how do you know him?'
'He's an ex-boyfriend from before I got married, and he used to boss me around something wonderful when we were together. I know he's got more into that sort of thing since then. so I know he'd be good at it. He had me doing all kinds of kinky things with him, so he'd stretch your boundaries, that's for sure.' She stopped speaking and looked hard at her friend. 'So, do you want to wimp out, or are you going to do it?'
'Are you sure you can trust him?'
'I'm sure. He never broke my trust.'
'Then yes, I'd love to.' Claire was getting more and more turned on by the idea, helped by alcohol lowered inhibitions.
'Okay, Then go out and get yourself some handcuffs or something to tie you down with and then one night it will happen. And just to make sure you're safe I'll stay in another room so I can come running if you scream.' Tina paused. 'No limits?'
'No limits.' Claire confirmed.
Tina had nodded and the idea was dropped for the rest of the evening. Nothing else was said about it over the next few days, but a nervous Claire ordered two sets of handcuffs and some webbing restraints over the internet anyway, and, when they arrived, put them to one side to be ready if ever they were needed. Several weeks went by and still nothing was said, sober Claire being too embarrassed to bring up the subject herself. Eventually she came to the conclusion that Tina had had second thoughts and nothing was going to happen. Not that she could blame her, who in their right mind would go along with such an outlandish and dangerous fantasy?
Then one morning her phone rang and it was Tina.
'You remember what we spoke about a few weeks ago, you know, about what your fantasy? Do you still want to go through with it?'
'Yes, of course.'
'Good. It's tonight. We'll be there about eight.'
With that the phone went dead and she was left staring at the handset, her mouth dry and her heart pounding. The suddenness of the call and the fact that Tina had rung off before she could prevaricate added to her abruptly growing excitement.
The appointed time arrived and the doorbell sounded. Claire's hand flew to her mouth and she sat terrified, until a longer, more demanding ring finally got her to her feet.
Steve turned out to be less fearsome than Claire had imagined. He was simply a wiry mid thirties man with gingery mouse hair and a thin moustache and dressed in a lumberjack's shirt and jeans, and carrying a supermarket shopping bag. Nothing sinister at all and certainly not the Dracula look-alike that Claire's imagination had conjured up, especially when his confident grin exposed slightly crooked front teeth rather than fangs.
Claire led everyone back through into the lounge, but nerves were getting the better of her and she sat staring at Tina and her ex in total silence, forgetting even the common courtesy of offering a drink. She eventually made a nervous attempt at small talk, but that faltered under Steve's steady smile as he sat quietly and waited, relaxed and self-assured. Why couldn't she feel like that, after all it was her home? Tina appeared to be enjoying her discomfort, because she made no attempt to lighten the mood at least, saying nothing at all until it seemed she had finally had enough.
'Okay.' Tina finally broke the tension. 'Do either of you want to call it off?'
'Right then.' She said when both shook their heads. 'We'd best get started, hadn't we?'
'Before we do.' Steve stated firmly, making almost his first contribution. 'I'd better lay down some ground rules.'
Not "we'd" better lay down some ground rules, Claire noticed.
'Firstly, with Tina as my witness, I want you to assure me that you freely give me permission to touch you, sexually or otherwise, and to inflict both pain and pleasure in any way I see fit. You say you want to have your boundaries stretched, to experience things that are not your usual preference. Well, you'll get that all right, I promise you, but I'm not going to say how. Now, do I have your willing consent to do anything I want?'
'You have it.' Claire's voice was little more than a whisper. 'But I need a safe word, just in case.'