I stared at the screen as my finger lazily spun the little wheel in the middle of the mouse. I sat hunched over my desk, my expression less than enthused if even fully awake. The knock at the door barely warranted a disinterested glance over my shoulder. I leaned over to pluck up my discarded shirt from the its pile on the floor coupled with my bra, ending their entangled laundry love affair.
"Door's open." I call out gruffly as I shuffled my baggy t-shirt into place.
The single light in the room cast its fluorescent glow on my face from above my desk. I kept my back to the door, as always the picture of hospitality and warmth. I glanced down to my short shorts in sudden reminder as my bruises pressed to the cushion of the seat, I really should have thrown some actual pants on.
I sighed as I finished up the last line of code on my stagnant program, rolling my shoulders as my small hand came up to rub at the apex of my neck and shoulder, the glamorous life of a kinkster. Before I could finally turn to recognize my visitor, strong thick fingers found my shoulders kneading at them with finger tips and palms pressing into the stiff muscles. His finger tips brushed mine for brief seconds as he began to rub. I, snatching my hand away in response to the surprising and sudden touch, couldn't control the pink blush that painted my cheeks. I cleared my throat and sat up straighter, curbing my enthusiasm as I effected my most controlled and disinterested voice, already recognizing the hands and letting my gruff faΓ§ade morph my posture and expression, even as I pressed back into those strong hands.
"What's up?"
He didn't respond. I didn't press. The room suddenly thick with what felt like an impenetrable silence, fearful of saying the wrong thing or ending the moment I stayed silent. The barest moans and whimpers of approval escaping my lips as those hands continued to manipulate my skin and muscles, my head eventually lulling forward, such a slave to my body's reflexive responses.
His hands changed their path to smooth up the column of my neck, his finger tips touching together as his thumbs touched, his hands completely encircling my throat as he continued his massage, pulling them away then bringing them back to ensnare my throat in the collar of his hands. I shivered uncontrollably, his pointer fingers having to nudge my chin up as my face hung forward so that I wouldn't unwittingly choke myself on his hands. Lost in the euphoria of his touch, my eyes startled open as a new sensation of thick rubber smoothed up the back of my neck, catching on my skin as it slid towards its goal. Finally the collar wrapping around my pale neck, as his body sheltered around me in order to work the buckle at the front, capturing me in such a simple way.
Still unwilling to let go of my gruff exterior, unwilling to be vulnerable, unwilling to chance even a small rejection, I sat stiffly facing the screen of my computer, clearing my throat and feeling it press into the tight encircling collar.
"It's okay if you are busy, I've got all this work to do anyways and I'm still pretty sore from the party." I said as my eyes drifted closed and steeled myself for some excuse, or agreement, or posturing, or ..rejection.