I was being tossed around between dreaming and waking, the deep, inescapable way that happens in a fever, when one in particular gripped and shook me. I thought I knew the general extent of my fantasies, but never before had I dreamed of rope.
The ropes in the dream seemed to change color. Sometimes natural, sometimes black, eventually settling into a kind of very deep maroon that was mostly red. Maybe I would even call the color "merlot" or "port" if someone had asked me to name it.
I was on the floor in some dimly lit place I couldn't recognize. In the background, softly, far away, some excellent raw black metal was playing; it could have been Enslaved's Yggdrasil album.
I also was gagged. Not with a ball, but with soft lengths of suede. It was wrapped several times around my head, first going with twisted strands into my mouth, then, on future passes, with broad, flat, luxurious swaths over it. I'd never really enjoyed being gagged for very long before, but I found I rather liked it now.
Somehow, several different sets of knots were being done at the same time, or at least, that's what it felt like. Some parts of me were already effectively immobilized by previously completed ones. My arms were bound down behind me. My lower legs were together, my knees crooked so they lay to my side. As He worked behind me, I realized He was in the process of tying a harness.
I felt almost drunk, but also perfectly clear. Exactly how it should be.
My heart raced. I was as close as I could get to a sort of hyperventilation, but with every breath still deep rather than shallow. Every inhale brought the soft friction of the rope and the knowledge that I was bound. Every graze of His fingers against my flesh to make a knot, every pull of the rope as the harness was formed was almost too much.
When I failed to contain a whimper, or I shifted in my bonds, I would hear Him chuckle softly, and sometimes He would
tsk
admonishingly at me, which of course only deepened my shameful arousal.
"You hungry little slut, are you going to cum already?" He chided me. "Remember you promised to be a good girl and be still for Daddy."
His voice almost ruined me. I tried not to, but I swear at the sound of it, I only felt the knot more keenly against my pussy. I shifted and let out a pitiful, desperate squeak as it pressed into me. I tensed my whole body in an effort not to simply burst and start rocking myself against it to find release.
His laughter washed over me again, a warm tide of humiliation for the barely contained hunger that made me His slut. It was as though I could feel the individual sound waves coming at me in slow motion. I could feel the pulse in my clit begging, begging...
I was almost in tears. I felt my cheeks redden in shame that I was so sensitive. I knew by the time He was done, if I hadn't cum already, He would barely have to lay a hand on me and I would shatter into a million pieces. I thought of His affected frustration if I came too quickly, without permission. How He might jerk me upwards from the floor and bend me over and how I would tense in ecstatic anticipation of His hand coming down on me.
Eventually the harness was finished. As He paused, I imagined, to admire His work, I tried unsuccessfully to control my breathing. The next sound was the sound of His footsteps walking away. I lay with my head turned to one side, the wrong side, of course, on the floor. I thought of trying awkwardly to raise myself enough to turn it about, but I sensed I ought not to despite the questions rising in me. Where was He going? He couldn't leave me here. Was He getting something?
But then I heard the sound of a pulley, and I felt the distributed tension on the harness, somehow both more confining and more gentle than I would have guessed, and my heart skipped. Of course! What I couldn't have seen, what I didn't yet know how to feel in what He had done had been Him tying me into further ropes to suspend me, but it now made perfect logical sense.
The next pull of the rope lifted my head from the ground. I imagined I could no longer be blamed for turning it, and I had to see... god and did I see. Those hands, His hands whose every vein and bone and line and contour I would hold in my mind forever, pulling the rope, hoisting me up, up, slowly up to a convenient height for whatever He had planned to do to me.
The sight of them, and the jerks of increased tension on the knot with every pull had me in a state of euphoric agony. I tried to focus only on the motion upward. I tried not to see anymore, to let my eyes go black this time on purpose.
But I couldn't stop myself from hearing Him.
"Maybe we should show Daddy's friends what a hungry slut you are."