"Not again", she said to herself. "I cannot believe this shit!" "I am spending yet ANOTHER New Years Eve alone." Although having been married for almost 11 years, Alexis had the WORSE luck in finding the right man. She had spent every New Years Eve alone since she married. Her EX husband, Todd, was always in a bad mood during the Holiday's and usually spent them hiding under the covers in their bed. She thought the divorce would give her the much needed opportunity to meet new people, experience new adventures and to find the companionship in a man that she never knew with her EX husband.
It didn't help much that she learned that recently, he had moved on to a new relationship and was doing all the things he never did with her. Dinner, movies, Christmas shopping, long drives were all things Alexis longed to do with him in the past. But he has somehow mustered up the energy to do those things with someone else now. She felt sorry for herself, but wished them well. She knew they were not a good match and even though he was good to his new girlfriend, if she were Alexis, he would not be so good.
Still she longed for the right an to come into her life. A man who was confident, educated and of course, sensuous. A man who could take charge of her and let her be the woman she wanted, needed to be. Alexis enjoyed her sensuality. She had plenty of time to discover who she was and how she wanted to express that image to others. She lacked confidence because she was totally ignored by her husband, the one man who said he loved her, for so many years. "Is that love?", she asked herself. She did not think it was. Fortunately, Alexis' question would be answered, soon.
He was tall. She liked them tall. He was easily 6'3" and had an athletic body. She liked him. Not at first, but then, he just grew on her. His smile, his voice, his scent, the way he walked, the way he looked at her. He made her smile. He made her feel good about herself. He believed in her. The fact that she was black and he was white meant nothing to either of them. They were friends. They liked each other and anyone who didn't understand their relationship, was just "shit out of luck" because they did not care. He would do anything for her and she for him.
They met at work. He owned the company and taught her the business very well. He said he could not do the work without her. She knew he could because he had done so for 10 years prior to meeting her. She loved him but would never admit it. She could not. At the time, he was still married to another. Alexis respected that fact but seeing them together everyday broke her heart. So she resigned from her position at the company and tried to get on with her life. Later, she learned that he too, had divorced.
It had been almost a full year since she had seen Ryan. She called him frequently because she missed him and she wanted to make sure he was okay. She learned he moved away after his divorce and was dating others. This too, broke her heart. But she was strong. She learned to deal with disappointments, thanks in part to her failed marriage. But still, she wanted him and had no idea how to tell him. She wrote anonymous posts, left messages but he never responded.
After the divorce, Alexis moved into her mother's home so she decided to sell items from her home that she would no longer need. She knew in his business, he was always looking for a good deal so she called him and asked if he would like to purchase the items from her. He agreed to do so. They arranged to meet at her storage unit to complete the transaction.