"Cesaria; Wake up my dear, dusk is here and we have much to talk about."
Before I opened my eyes, I absorbed my surroundings using my senses. The voice, so gentle and soothing, familiar and loving. The air is filled with scents, some are comforting yet strangely grotesque; it is my own scent, my perfume and his, but then there is also the smell of dissolution. Before my thoughts could register the last thought, I felt his cool fingertips on my forehead. Stroking my hair, he caressed me gently and then he spoke again, "Denk an mich, schatz." I asked myself how it could be that I know what he is saying to me? "Cesaria, you have to listen to what I am about to tell you. I know you can hear me now, I can feel it as I have always felt your presence."
Then he spoke to me in his tongue, "Certamente, tu riccordi, mia bella." Convinced he was a close friend and now curious I opened my eyes and gazed upon a familiar figure. The man I have told all of my secrets to. Tall and of muscular build, dark hair and eyes, sporting a mustache and trimmed beard that come to a tuft at the chin, as they did in the old days. But of course I know who this is, his lips have touched mine endless times, his gentle, soothing voice has encouraged me to things I would never have dared. I gave a pout and then spoke, "my name is not Cesaria, Jack." Jack looked down at me and laughed softly before continuing. "Your name is Cesaria and my name is Jack only for now. Remember dearest, it is time for you to remember again." This name really was mine, this I knew, but I had others.
I was confused and began to tremble in his arms as the memories began to rush through my mind with his words. "That's it dear one, when we met those were our names. It was a long, long time ago, lifetimes have passed since then. Let me recount one of our encounters to help you come forth and take your place in this lifetime without the pain you seem to always feel." I am Maximilianii, Adelita, but you knew me as Jack even when we reunited again in El Paso. The world was wild and raw in the deserts of the West then, people lived their lives quickly and without much care about the uncertain future.
You awakened then, and I brought you forth as I am doing now and then I watched, as I always do for you are amazing. Dressed in an old woman's black dress you followed the sounds of laughter and music, piano music though the sound was disturbingly out of key, the melody of Red River Valley still carried through. Your hair and dress dusty, you walked into the saloon and I smiled at your courage.
A woman approached you first and looked at the girl so obviously in need of assistance and spoke, "Well what have we here? Such an old dusty dress on you my dear, it looks as though you borrowed it from your grannie!" She cackled a bit at your expense but you offered her a smile in return. Then you told her your name was Adela and you needed help, having been thrown out of your home in Mexico and forced to make your own life. She looked at the dust covered face and made her decision quickly.
"Come upstairs with me Adela, I will take you in and you will be mine." All eyes were on the two women slowly ascending the stairs into the chambers which they had all visited at one time or another. A big woman was filling the wooden tub with warm water in the room, the smell of soap and candles lingering from a full day of use. "My name is Maybelle darling, I will help wash the dust away and make you gorgeous if you trust me and do as I say."
"Yes ma'am and thank you," you spoke in a courteous tone as you began slipping off the old woman's shoes. "Let me help you with that dear" Maybelle said as she began to unbutton the black buttons on the dress. She slipped the dress of your shoulders and let it fall to the ground around your feet. Snickering at the sight of the stretched and worn fabric of the camisole and bloomers. These she ripped easily, knowing they would be thrown in the fire soon.
Maybelle stopped and looked at your naked body as you stood there before her with your arms outstretched at your sides. "Step into the tub Adela, you must soak for a while." The tepid water making your nipples stand erect were enticing even to Maybelle, who had seen and done most everything.
When you sat in the water, she began to rub your shoulders with a folded rag and hummed along with the music from downstairs. She licked her lips as her hands reached around to wipe the dust off your breasts, lingering on the big pointy nipples. Your eyes closed then, and you leaned back on the edge of the tub to enjoy her caress. Maybelle took the opportunity to look again at her new prize, smiling to herself at the thought of the money she would make from your body very soon. She moved to the middle of the tub and continued washing the middle of your body and then opened your legs with her hand.