On my stomach I lay, silent tears streaking across my face, soaking into the pillow beneath my cheek. My body weak and tired, my emotions volatile and so near the surface. His lips whispered over each welt left by His whip. His voice soft and gentle, full of love and desire.
His hands stroked my body, His fingers caressing the tender lines marring my sides. There was heat in His touch, purpose, strong and sure. His ownership beginning to make itself known in the physical realm whereas it had only previously been known in my mind, in my heart, and in my soul.
Weeks had passed since that first meeting. His words invaded my thoughts and His images consumed my dreams. He slipped into my life so unexpectedly, so unassumingly; neither of us looking for anything...yet quickly knowing we had found the world.
"You take My pain so well, little one."
I had never been whipped before. Spanked yes, as an errant child, but never whipped and certainly never by a lover. Fear had filled me, uncertainty. The pain had been unbearable, and yet, I bore it...for Him. Always for Him.
I hadn't realized my depth of feeling for Him, my devotion to His happiness, my devotion to His pleasure.
I hadn’t realized before Him what need was. I had wanted, I had desired, but I hadn’t needed. If my discomfort caused Him to smile, to feel whole and complete inside, I would endure it. I needed to endure it down to the very depths of my soul.
I needed to submit and I needed His dominance in whatever form it took. Pleasure or pain, I needed…
I had only cried out once and it had been on the verge of blackness. I had taken all my body could handle and more. My mind had threatened to shut down. The leather slid off my skin in a slow whisper and then His lips were there, telling of His love, of His pleasure, of His pride in me.
There were no restraints, no cuffs or ties binding me to the bed, only my surrender to Him kept me from running, kept me from hiding away from the bite and sting of pain.
It was not for me, the whippings and croppings and floggings. I did not relish it as some did. But I was willing...for Him.