I sit on the bus like a frighten animal. Outside the cold air licks the windows and condenses my breath into fog against them. The butterflies in my stomach are fluttering so fast that they must be trying to kill one another. Surely I'm stupid, nothing about my plan bears any intelligence, yet I can't get myself to pull the cord and hop off the bus to go home. So the bus treks along closer to where I so desperately want to be and where I so desperately want to run from.
I know he's waiting for me, sitting in a back booth waving away the waiters. Maybe he's displeased that I am late, he must be. I shift in my seat. What if he's left? How should I apologize? I'm reminded now that what I'm doing is stupid. I'm disappearing deep into a part of the city I don't know, to meet a man I've never seen, and I know he wants to hurt me. I know he wants to hurt me bad.
The bus rolls to a stop in front of the restaurant and I hurry down the stairs without thought. My nipples perk up as the wind slides inside my coat and through the sheer shirt he asked me to wear. I shiver and my legs goose bump, a miniskirt and leather boots leave too much skin exposed. Darting into the restaurant's door I breathe slowly out of anticipation and fear. I told him I'm new to this, that I've never done this before. But that just made the hungry wolf smile wider.
I hug my coat around my revealing outfit while I ask the waitress where he's sitting. I'm so nervous I almost call him "Master" when referring to him. Everything feels exposed, every cell aware of its openness. I take a deep breath as she leads me to his table. He's dressed in a nice black suit and looks up smiling at the sight of me, an unmasked wickedness in his grin. The waitress sees it also and hurries away after handing me a menu. I guess he scares her too.
He takes my coat without a word and immediately I panic. Does he want me to quietly read the menu and wait to be spoken to? Or should I rush into an apology for being late? The only thing I'm sure of is that I can't afford to be wrong. I fiddle with the hem of my skirt, trying to formulate words in my mouth. It doesn't work in time.
"You're late," there's obvious displeasure in his voice.
"I'm very sorry, I got out of the house late and the bus was-" he cuts off my excuses.
"Master," he says, "It's 'Master' to you. And I don't want any excuses. I realize you are untrained, but the in no ways voids punishment."
I gulp, "Yes Master."
"Since you wasted my valuable time --took it per say- I'm going to have to take something of yours," he looks me in the eyes and finishes in a stern voice, "take off your panties and give them to me."
"What!?" I exclaim without thinking, then realize my mistake. He stares down at me with a glower. "I mean, are you sure Master? In public?"
"Do not question me," he orders, "now."
I hesitate, the idea thrills but also terrifies me. My lips feel dry and I try in vain to wet them with my tongue. Suddenly I wonder if anyone else has overheard the conversation. My heart races and I look up, scanning every restaurant patron for a sign that they're listening in. No one looks suspicious, but that does little to calm my pounding heart. I start to slide out of the seat, neck craning to find the little girl's room. He stops me.
"Where do you think you're going?" he asks, stern command in his voice.
"The bathroom," I whisper back, all too aware that someone could overhear us.
"No you're not; you're taken them off right here."
"In front of everyone!?" I exclaim.
"Either you take them off or I'll take them off for you," he smirks. Something tells me he'd like nothing better than to do just that. I gulp and sit back down next to him. I have no clue how to do this, how to make sure no one notices. My fingers feel shaky and numb as they lift on up edge of my skirt. I can't believe I'm doing this; my heart beat drowns out all the sound. I slowly work down the side of my thong facing the wall, getting it to where it's barely still hidden under my skirt edge. I gulp as I try to think of how to do the other side without someone noticing. I take a glance up at my Master and see that he's watching me intently. I wet my lips again and begin to work the next side now. It's a slow agonizing process. My pussy feels cold and alive with sensations. I've almost got it out from under my skirt when I hear Master speak in a low voice to me.
"Keep going," he tells me, then he raises his arm and waves "Waitress!"
My breath freezes in my chest as the waitress trots over to our table and begins to take his order. Somehow my fingers keep working in the slowest of secrecy; my very breath is as quiet as possible. Maybe I can disappear into the seat. When he finishes giving our order he dismisses the waitress and looks back at me with a grin.
"What'd you do that for?" I hiss at him, watching him smile devilishly.
"Hand them to me," he tells me, reaching over to me with an open palm and ignoring my question. I hesitate, then slipped them off my ankles and handed them to him in a rush. He smiled and tucked them into his pocket. He looks very satisfied. I've decided I'm never going to be late again.
He starts a casual conversation, asking about my day and did I have trouble finding this place. He's gloating, just trying to act like everything's normal when my exposed womanhood is telling me quite the opposite. The food can't come quick enough, likely the only distraction I'll have all night. And he knows it.
I keep trying to press my thighs together and convince my pussy it's not exposed. It doesn't work. When the waitress finally comes with the food I'm careful to not draw attention to myself. I'm not even sure if I'm hungry anymore. I feel overwhelmed already by this whole scenario.
"You should eat my dear," he says to me, his voice brushing over my skin like a slithering snake, "you're going to need your strength." I don't doubt it in the least, but I'm not sure how much I can stomach. I pick up my fork and begin messing with my food, moving it around on my plate as if I can make it disappear that way. The nervous butterflies in my stomach haven't finished killing each other off yet. He looks at me with a smirk on his face, clearly enjoying the power of intimidation he has over me. Then he places his hand on my thigh, just below the edge of my skirt.
"Eat," he commands me. I'd be a fool to think I could disobey. The food tastes better than I thought it would, which I guess is a plus. He doesn't take his hand off my thigh; in fact I can swear it's inching upwards. The tingling in my nether lips doesn't lie. I wonder if anyone can see this, I feel so out in the open like a frightened animal. I know he's getting off on my obvious discomfort; he hasn't quit smirking this whole time.
He keeps talking as the meal progressing, mostly likely to keep up appearances but maybe he just likes to hear himself talk. I don't say anything and he doesn't seem to expect me too, I'm not even really trying to listen. I probably should I realize but my head has become a cacophony of half formed thoughts. What am I doing? I keep asking myself, what am I doing?
His hand feels warm and enticing, it's hard to eat with such distractions but I probably can't afford to disobey again. Scratch that, I know I can't afford to disobey again. This is going to be a long night. I'd probably be questioning my sanity right about now if I wasn't admiring the texture of his hand against my thigh. A little rough, but that's the idea isn't it? They feel strong and steady; my own hands are trying not to shake by comparison. This fear is strangely arousing, trapped in the wolf's den with no escape. Even if I wanted to.
"You're not shaking," he suddenly whispers right in my ear. I jump involuntarily and almost drop my fork; my head whips around to meet his gaze. He's grinning maliciously like the devil himself. I can feel my snatch slicken at the sight. I'm not religious, but the thought to cross myself comes to mind. My mouth dries while trying to respond to him and nothing comes out, words haven't been my forte so far this evening.