I've always thought of myself as almost purely dominant, so when I recently decided I wanted to lose all control and be a slave for just one weekend, you can imagine how I surprised myself.
I had been seeing Kyle for about 2 years. We had begun a very loose D/s relationship in that we established that either one of us could choose to end it at any time with no hard feelings. After all, we were good friends before we started and we didn't want to ruin that friendship after we were done. We both happen to be switches, but Kyle mainly had the dominant role and I, the submissive role. We had switched once or twice before, but, to me, since I'm so socially dominant, I felt more comfortable being in Kyle's hands.
It had been a while since we had a formal play date and I had been toying with the idea of being Kyle's slave for one weekend. I told him my ideasโthat I wanted to experience being leashed, that I wanted to serve him, etc. He, naturally, seemed intrigued and, really...what good Dom wouldn't?
The idea had been floating around for a while until I had almost completely forgotten about it. It was Friday and I was at work ready to close the office when I got a text message. It was from Kyle.
"My place. 8:00. You will appear to me wearing only your red corset and a long skirt. Pack if you need to. You'll be here for a while."
My heart jumped into my throat. I thought...was I really ready for this? Perhaps I had spoken too soon. I was scared out of my mind but there was, clearly, no turning back now.
It kind of threw me off a little when Kyle had requested that I wear only a corset and a skirt. Normally he likes the look of my usual stockings, garters, and heels, but a special request for a special night was not out of the ordinary. He knows I have good taste in hairstyles, makeup and perfume, so he leaves those up to me. My hair had gotten a lot shorter since we engaged in our little activitiesโit used to be my natural light brown color and it was down to the middle of my back. Now, it's black and bobbed in a 20s fashion. Not much you can do with that, but I knew he liked the silk flowers that I wore in my hair sometimes; however, I was clearly instructed to wear two things: a corset and a skirt. No undergarments, no accessories...I didn't want to push my limits.
After I left work, my mind started reeling. It was like I was on automatic pilot. I drove home and immediately stripped and went in the shower. Besides wanting to be fresh for Kyle, I just really needed to calm down. I slowly massaged my scalp with cherry-scented shampooโsomething Kyle had picked out for me. The smell always reminds me of past trysts we'd had together. Instantly, images of him bathing my abused and marked body after a night of play filled my head and, before I knew it, I had a hand on my right nipple-- caressing it, pinching it...honoring many feelings that were rushing to my belly. It occurred to me that, perhaps, I should relax by masturbating, but I decided against it. I'm sure Kyle would like to make me cum, so I needed to keep myself built up for as long as possible.
I finished washing up, making sure to pay extra attention to my nether regions to make sure that both entrances were totally clean. I shaved off all my body hair...I know Kyle likes it when my skin is smooth all over, as do I.
I packed my backpack with perfume, makeup, deodorant, toothbrush/toothpaste, brush...the usual. I knew he wouldn't have me wearing any clothes anyway, so I just packed some sweats for when I went home on Sunday.
I often get made fun of for my collection of corsets, but heyโa girl has to be prepared! I was happy he went with my red corset, as it is my favorite. Against my pale skin and my black hair, the contrast is striking. Out of instinct, I almost slipped on my garter belt but remembered quickly that I was not to wear stockings this night. I chose some normal, black 4" heels that I have...comfortable for me, very sexy and easy to take off before getting in the door. By the time I was done getting ready for everything it was 7:00. I decided I better leave.
It doesn't take all that long to get to Kyle's apartment, but you know how it is when you're excited...you can't just sit around and wait! It's agonizing! Then again, it's all part of the game. The agony, the waiting, the suspense, the frustration...it's all just cruel ingredients of an amazing recipe.
Sure enough, I got to Kyle's house half an hour early. I waited in my car and smoked a lot of cigarettes to try and calm my nerves. Kyle hates it when I smoke but I desperately needed to do something to pass the time. I sprayed myself with some of his favorite perfume to mask the smell and, hopefully, appease Kyle. After the clock said 7:55, I got out of the car and headed to the door. After all, I wanted to make sure I was on time, but not too early.
I pressed the button to Kyle's apartment and waited for a response, my hands shaking from anxiety and anticipation.
"Hello?"
"Hi Kyle. It's Cora."
"What did you say to me?"
"Um...it's Cora. Can I come up?"
"Slave, if you wish to address me correctly, you will call me Master or Sir from now on."
....I thought, "Oh lord...here we go." Was I really ready for this? I had to force the words out of my mouth. "Master, it's Cora. May I please come up?" I felt so stupid, so degraded, so juvenile. What was I doing? What had I gotten myself into?