This story involves bdsm and gay play. Not your thing, move on.
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I can't stop thinking about what happened last Saturday. It was so much more than I expected, and frankly, I did things I never thought I would do. I had fantasized about forced fem but still was surprised how different I felt when in panties. It's just hard to feel very masculine when in a pair of panties. The public stuff was so scary, really didn't think I would do that, but can't stop thinking about how that guy looked at me in the parking lot. It was so embarrassing but that doesn't help me stop thinking about it and fantasizing about what might have happened. And the discipline. It was very painful at times and I so wanted them to stop but when I remember how I felt when they stopped, I understood it was their right to do as they did. It's not like I didn't come looking to be treated like that but it was so intense.
Will she call me again? What will I do if she does? I know that this might be more than I really want but can I say no? It sends chills up my spine every time I visualize her standing over me, legs spread, lecturing me on what was going to happen. That isn't the only place I get chills and I can't stop getting hard every time I remember her making me look at her as she glares at me expressing her feeling of me. I really think she thinks I'm gay. She emphasized it often enough, talking about me lacking masculinity and how easy it was so see. I wondered if she was right. Do strangers think I'm a faggot when they look at me? I have to admit, sometimes I see a look on a guy's face that makes me think they do. I can't keep eye contact when I see them look at me like that.
Her friend, Mistress Anne, was a very intimidating lady. Really wouldn't make to make that woman mad. I'm glad Mistress Sherrie is not like her, I don't think I could handle that. Mistress Sherrie is intense, and knows what she wants, but I don't think she is nearly as sadistic as Mistress Anne. I wonder if women like them become more sadistic as time goes by. Do they want to push more and more?
I ordered some panties online. I hope they get here before she calls me again. There were so many styles of panties it was hard to decide what to get. I finally settled on a variety with a couple thongs, a pair of sissy panties, baby blue with white ruffles, and several pair of bikini panties in various colors and styles. I have to admit, I did get hard while looking at all the pretty panties.
A few more days went by and sometimes I was relieved she didn't call so that I wasn't made to decide what to do. Then there was the rest of the time when I wanted her to call so badly. At those times, I knew what I would do if she called. I would do as told. It scares me where this could lead but I know that I can't say no to her. I need this.
Finally, the call came. It was Saturday, later in the evening when the phone rang. I answered and recognized her voice right away.
'How's my little boy?'
'I'm fine Mistress, thank you for calling.'
'I wanted to give you time to think about our night together. How are you feeling about what happened?'
'It was very intense Mistress. The spankings and paddling really hurt but, I have to admit, at the time it seemed like what needed to be done. I hope I wasn't too much of a wimp, I had just never been punished that harshly before.'
'It's suppose to hurt boy, how else will you learn to behave and do as told. I have to tell you I was somewhat disappointed in your behavior. I can't stand people that say they want something and when they get a chance for it to happen they just hesitate instead of just doing as told. Sometimes that can get so irritating.' Listening to her and already feel like I'm being lectured again. 'You realize that often the reason for the discipline is your fault and you make it necessary for me to make sure you understand.'
'I guess but I was trying hard to do as told and sometimes it didn't seem like anything I did was good enough to please you,' hoping it didn't sound like whining.
'Yes, exactly, you couldn't do anything right and whose fault it that?' the edge in her voice very evident.
Know I'm fighting a losing battle here, 'I guess it was my fault Mistress Sherrie.'
'You guess?' she questions.
'It was my fault Mistress.'
'Better,' she says.
I can imagine the look of satisfaction on your face. She is so different from other ladies I have met. It's all about her and she doesn't leave that in doubt and has no problem putting me in my place.
'Now enough whining about a little spanking. You know you loved it. You loved having a woman take control of you and treat you like you need to be treated. You want more don't you boy?'
I knew what I would say all the time. 'Yes Mistress.'
'Yes Mistress, what?' her voice cold.
'I want more. I want to submit to you and I want you to be my Mistress, please.'
'Will you do as told, no excuses. Public play will not happen without your approval. Other than that, you do what I say, when I say, with who I say. Understand.'
'Yes Mistress, I understand.'
'I will test you boy, you sure you are up for this?'
'I think so Mistress, I will try hard to please you and do as you say,' I tell her trying to sound submissive.
'I don't want to hear any of your bullshit, you up for this or not bitchboy?' her voice domineering and loud.
'Yes Mistress, I am.'
'Good, then we will not have a need for anyone to see the videos from last week.'
'Videos? You have videos of the other night?' I ask, a little panic in my voice.
'Of course, bad boys must be kept in line. Don't worry, you behave and no one will ever see them. I will send you a copy, I'm sure you will enjoy watching it with your little friend. Now, I need you to go over to Mistress Anne's place at 10 tonight, she needs us to help her out.'
'Please Mistress, can't I come see you. I have to tell you I'm kind of scared of Mistress Anne.'
'Jesus fuck, you just told me you will do as told and the first thing I tell you to do, I have to hear this shit. Do you think I care if you are such a wimp you are afraid of her. Fuck, try to act a little like a man will you. Damn, I don't think you are worth the trouble.'
'I'm sorry Mistress, I'm sorry. You are right, I just wasn't thinking right. I will be at her place at 10 tonight. I will not disappoint you Mistress.'