I cant quite believe I am sitting opposite him, again! It's been so many years yet here we are still keeping it going. My life's longest relationship with a man who I never even lived with and hardly ever went away on holiday with.
Pathetic or lovely, who knows and right now I don't seem to care!
Here we are talking, kids, dying parents, terrible exs, present day lover disasters. Sometimes sad, sometimes giggling like we did in 87 and just like then I am experiencing those old familiar feelings.
Fuck why am I so bad with him. Its just not right. Maybe he feels the same way about me but if he does he hides it well. We keep talking in that dark nook in that crowded bar. I surreptitiously squeeze my thighs together and feel myself getting wet. Thing is he knows me so well and he saw me do it. Our eyes lock.
His voice lowers to an intimate growl "You know I was walking in town last week. This woman pulled up in her car a few metres ahead. She wound down her window to talk to a guy she recognised on the street. Without saying a word he leaned through the window and I just knew his hand went between her legs. She knew I was watching her but she closed her eyes and adjusted herself to give access and smiled. It so reminded me of us, so wonderfully instinctive."
He looks at my neck and the bare skin ust above my low cut top and leans closer to gently whisper "You look so fucking lovely." His warm breath on my neck. My traitorous slutty body! I feel that bloody red blush. Its almost as if it rises straight from my now swollen clit, to blossom like an inappropriate advert on my neck.
"So sweet and innocent but with a smile of such pure filth." He is smiling now. I know he loves seeing me react.
I really want a gin and Tonic but he bought me a soda water and bitters, the bastard. He said I get too horny on alcohol and he "wants me straight!"
"Thats nice" I reply. I try to go for breezy and brisk but I hear myself a horny nervous teenager. I need to grow up. I am over 50 for fucks sake, so is he but with his blue eyes twinkling he is loving it.
As I watch him he puts his hand up to the side of my neck and I feel his thumb stroke my throat. Then it all floods back I remember choking myself on his cock because i wanted him so badly, feeling my cunt stretch to accept as he pushed his whole fist inside me. Feeling totally bound, my body on fire from pain and pleasure knowing that right then he could have done anything to me and I would have taken it.
But that was then. This is now. I lean closer, sweetly smiling that pure filth smile he so loves and push my hand between his legs, I feel him already hard but see him wince as I also squeeze his balls. Now it's my turn. I know that the pub has disappeared for him and I am now all he sees. I love it. I whisper "Do you want me? To have access to me when ever you want. To own my mouth, my cunt, my tits, my hole, just like you used to?
He can't seem to speak so I keep going.
"Do you want to see my cunt stretch to take whatever you want to squeeze in? You want to see me cum again and again so much and so hard that I almost pass out and end up your twitching cum slut lying at your feet."
His eyes have gone that hard pre sex way but he still has no answer.
Do you want me to take you outside, and in that park opposite, to get down on my knees and suck your cock so deep that you explode and I swallow every bit of cum you have?
I squeeze again making him gasp out a "yes."
"Well first" I lean in as if to kiss but instead I go to his ear, bite it and then whisper "you need to do what I want."
With that I stand up and walk out. Knowing that he will be sprinting after me. I smile, relishing his desire for me not knowing what I am going to do but loving that feeling of total freedom of utter abandonment to the moment.
I lead, as we quickly cross the road and enter the summer time park as darkening dusk creates that magical time of day at a magical time of year. The scent of jasmine and cut grass evolves with the exciting suggestive shadows. This night is so full of delicious potential.
I know his eyes are fixed on my arse as I walk ahead and of course know that he is little bit too excited so when as we go deeper in to the park he grabs my shoulder I am ready.