My day off.
A Wednesday afternoon on a dull winter's day. A stark little upstairs spare room in a small nondescript house located in a characterless suburban cul-de-sac on the outskirts of the city. Only a few degrees above the outside temperature. Single light bulb hanging from a flex in the ceiling. No shade.
He was standing there with an old tatty white tennis shoe -- which he'd proudly informed me a moment before had been gifted to him by a strict P.E. teacher now retired - in his right hand gently and casually slapping the open palm of his left hand with the hard red plastic sole of it. It was an action calculated to intimidate me. And it worked. I felt scared.
But it could all have been an act because that was what I'd paid him for -- a hundred quid to punish me. Punish me without mercy. Punish me hard. And keep it professional. Uncomplicated. Ramification free.
I also felt sordid. Dirty. Ashamed: Living a lie. Deceiving my wife. Projecting an image of a regular decent and optimistic fair-minded guy to all that knew or had business with me - it was a betrayal. A dirty, stinking betrayal.
But it was time to get my just desserts, to be punished, deliciously ironically, for craving to be punished. To be hurt. To be humiliated. To finally fulfil and gratify my perverted desires - I couldn't help myself, the impulse was too strong, overpowering. And I could almost hear the Devil laughing manically in the background.
"Take all your clothes off, you pathetic little pervert," he commanded with a cockney sergeant-major kind of voice.
Pathetic. Little. Pervert
.
The man had clocked me. Knew my breed. And now there were two of us in this world who realised what I was.
He was wearing a dated purple tracksuit that would have been trendy in the seventies with wannabe work-out fanatics. Or sadistic games teachers. Average height. Powerful build. Graded sandy haired. Strong yet neat features. Cold blue eyes. Ruddy complexion. Clean shaven. About forty-five. And a countenance that projected,
Don't fuck with me
, which happens to be the only countenance in the world people really pay attention to.
I stripped off and dumped my clothes on the bare floorboards. When I was done, I just stood there with my hands by my side with my penis embarrassingly stiff as the proverbial broomstick.
"Now bend over and place the palms of your hand on the seat of the chair."
I did as he said with my rock-hard prick involuntary twitching with the potent cocktail of fear and thrill.
"Right, I am going to give you six
very
hard whacks, and you are going to take it whether you want to or not. Stay in position and try not to straighten up. Show me that you're
not
just another flake or fake.
Understand?
"
"Yes, sir." And wondered distractedly whether he challenged every one of his clients with 'flake or fake?'
I realized I was l trembling. Genuinely scared. The next few moments would be hell. Sheer
hell
.
I was looking down at my hands on the seat of the chair when he landed the first of the shocking blows on my bare left buttock with the sound of the impact briefly reverberating off the walls. The pain was unbelievable, sickening, and I could feel my face cheeks tingle momentarily as the blood temporarily drained from them.
"Get BACK into position!" he'd barked - I had straightened up.
He then delivered another five with about forty-five seconds between each one allowing no real time for the agony to subside.
There was no doubt that this man was a genuine sadist. And nasty.
At one point I thought of Jesus on the cross and the suffering he endured for all our sins. But I was no Jesus, rather I was the sinner.
I had seriously thought of giving up, straightening up, and walking away at one point, but he had anticipated that by hissing menacingly: "Better not be thinking of giving up, you...
wimp.
"
It was an awful experience and I had now bitterly regretted contacting him -- I vowed that this was the first and last time I would do something like that. I was an idiot and intoxicated with a sexual fantasy that had no counterpart in real life. As soon as I could I'd get away, I'd cancel my profile on the site and delete his number, get a new phone.
The last blow had exploded on my pounded and burning buttock and nearly caused me to collapse onto the floor in a cowering foetal heap. But I was stoic to the end.
I rose, turned round to him with lowered and watering eyes and said: "Thank you for punishing me very hard, sir. I deserved it."
"Yeah, well that's what you paid me for. Now, wank yourself off, and when you're done you can leave."
I felt it was just easier to obey, so with him watching intently I had begun to alternately rub my sensitive nipples with the fingers of my left hand whilst tugging on the top of my slightly wilted shaft. As I had done so I had I had visualised an image of me naked and bending over to be slippered by him, replaying the agony, the humiliation... and then I had folded up, feeling my face redden, as I had climaxed powerfully with my spunk jetting out and splattering onto the floorboards.
"Hmmm. Looks like you really needed that." He then handed me a tissue to wipe myself off with.
"Don't worry about the floor, I'll mop that when you're gone. I just thought I'd let you know that you've got quite feminine eyes... long eye lashes... I almost felt sorry for you,
almost
."
This was a different side to him I was seeing, and it confused me. I didn't really know what to say so I just said: "Thanks."
He took the tissue off me which was damp and smelled of my spunk before tossing it into a bin in the corner. I then hurriedly got dressed, in silence, and when I was done, I walked down the stairs, unlatched the front door, and exited onto the close, not daring to look back in a futile attempt to block out what had just happened. A denial.