Our sex life was boring. Unexpected really because it began with such excitement.
Married for 6 years, expecting our second child, most couples might just chalk it up to a drought. We're not most couples. My husband is quite sexual. He is a pervert. Self admitted. His constant sexual attention is quite a self-esteem booster.
We needed to figure out was going wrong between us. Those first few years were filled with orgasms, ropes, and vibrators.
Once we confronted the problem, the truth began to slip out. I kept many of my sexual fantasies hidden. Catholic school girl guilt kept me ashamed of my innermost desires. One night I admitted I fantasized about girls touching other girls. Sucking each others nipples, licking each others cunts.
"Yes?" my husband excitedly asked me to continue.
"Well, maybe tying each other up, maybe a group of girls forcing another girl to have repeated orgasms."
My husband touched my clit. I was dripping wet. I flushed with embarrassment.
"I don't want you to think I'm gay," I said.
"I don't think that. Everyone has fantasies. It's okay. You're turning me on."
He grasped one of my over-sized breasts in his hands, gently massaging my half-dollar sized nipples. He began rubbing my clit in a circular motion. Then, he sucked on 2 of his fingers. Once adequately wet, he inserted them. I groaned with pleasure. He got between my legs, and his tongue began to flick my clit. He knows exactly how to finger fuck me. I felt his fingers rubbing the nub at the back of my pussy. He whispered, "It makes me so hot to imagine I'm a woman eating your pussy."
I yelped out. I heard lips smacking as he sucked my clit. My body lost control as I climaxed. My limbs were flailing, but he did not release me. I thought if he doesn't stop I'm not going to be able to take it. My hips were bucking on their own accord. The release was so intense I couldn't see.
After that night, we opened up to each other. With the fear aside that I wasn't as vanilla as he thought, my husband began sharing his desires. He opened up more about the kind of porn he enjoyed. We started reading erotic stories and watching online porn together. What were once his private masturbation sessions, became shared experiences. We enjoyed latex, BDSM, anal, lesbian, and many other stories together.
On a date night we discussed how admitting to each other our sexual fantasies opened new doors to us. Our sex life had returned with a fervor, better than ever. Revealing ourselves was erotic in itself. Sitting in the passenger seat at a gas station parking lot, I said, "There's something I always wanted to do."
"What?"
"I feel shy," I whimpered.
"Come on," he smiled, "After all this, what could embarrass you?"
"Well...."
"Yes?"
"It's just....I've kind of always wondered what it would be like to use a strap-on."
I braced myself for his reaction.
"Are you kidding me?" he asked. "I've always wanted to try a strap-on. I mean I think it would feel really good."
I laughed nervously. I still felt unsure whether I wanted this to come from my mind into reality. I was scared.
"I mean I don't know," I said, "I think I'd like it. It would be so different."
He replied, "Ass play feels good. It just does. You like it when I lick your ass, right?"
"I've always wanted you to play with my ass more," he admitted, "it's hard for a guy to say that, but I've done it to myself so I know I'd like it."
I grew excited. I could feel the dampness in my panties from his words. The prospect of an adventure made me want to touch myself.
"Do you want to go to the sex store?" I asked.
Off we went to store number one. Staring at a row of strap-ons completely titillated me. Thoughts of bending a man over and giving it to him flooded my head. However, I had no idea how to choose. Types, size, belts. This looked like it required research. We asked the salesgirl for help. She was completely bewildered about what we wanted to use it for. "I feel sorry for her boyfriend," my husband whispered in my ear.
I giggled and we kept looking. Over in a corner, we found a feeldoe. This looked interesting. I inserted it in myself, no straps to worry about, and like a cherry on top, there was a vibrator in the bit that would be inside me.
My husband looked afraid. This particular feeldoe happened to be the large version. We both wanted this to be just right. Off to store number two. We immediately found the feeldoe we wanted. Now time to pick lubrication. With a shelf to choose from, we giddily chose a popular brand. With purchases in hand, we proudly made our way home.
We set up the bedroom, which is our ritual before sex. Lighting, stripping the bed, beverages on the end table. During this process, my husband confessed.
"It's not just the sex act I desire. It's more. I want to be yours. I want you to possess me. Dominate me."
This took me by surprise. I knew he had dom/sub fantasies, but I thought he was always the dom. I wasn't sure.
"What do you want?" I asked.
"I want you to decide that."
I had to think about this. I took the new feeldoe in the bathroom to prepare it. I switched on the vibrator, got it in place, and inserted the feeldoe.
I looked down at my hard, blue cock. It stuck out under my hard, pregnant belly. It stood out perfectly between the valley of my large tits. There I was. Pregnant with a cock that will never be soft. I was more than woman and more than man. I felt empowered.